jhooty
Tourist
I think growing up and when I practiced I wasn’t aware of it being considered “wrong”. I think I had a sense that it was definitely taboo but I aligned it with my furry stuff and it wasn’t until much later I realized how different it was. I got called out by my ex a very long time ago when he found out, it made me feel a ton of shame and I was pretty frightened by his threats to tell everyone. That if anything created some trauma and made me develop more feelings of shame from then on. That was years ago though and now, being in a much more supportive, secure environment and having been through therapy, I recognize this as just something that is apart of me, it is what it is.