Born and raised Roman Catholic. Turned hardcore atheist in my teens. Later decided to start detoxing my mind of all the guilt and shame I was still carrying around. I started smoking weed and meditating to understand morality and consciousness. As a result I finally fully accepted my sexuality, which is nice, but I no longer consider myself an atheist, which is confusing.
I have this distinct impression that all life is a very small part of a single consciousness that exists independent of, but interacts with, our physical reality. I can't explain it very well, but I've decided to explore these ideas when I try shrooms in a few months.
So, I guess I'm not sure.