And before I begin, it is NOT what you think it's going to be. That outcome might have been preferable.
I met someone on these boards (with a decent amount of posts) from the same New England region as myself so I PMd him, then we started talking on Telegram and became friends. He kept giving me advice on this lifestyle, we kept sharing personal details about ourselves, he gave me pics. I'm on vacation for the week, so I asked if he and I could meet up with his dogs. We were going to a public place first to get used to each other and then check into a hotel for a few hours...if anything happened, great, if not, oh well.
Today was the big day and one I had been waiting two weeks for. He actually showed up at the public place with his amazing dogs (a GSD and a malamute). He was actually who he said he was and so was his dogs. So we walked for a while and then he asked for the hotel address so he could meet me there in a few after he did something. I got there, checked in, paid $800 for the two of us, and sat down and waited. And waited. And waited. I messaged him letting him know it's all set, no reply although he did look at it. Then he presumably blocked me on Telegram as his profile pic disappeared and it wouldn't send any of my messages. Bottom line is, he never showed up. He was leading me on this entire time, pretending to be my friend. I really wanted a zoo friend who I could talk to and meet up in the future that may or may not lead to sexual activities with a dog.
How do I deal with this? I have no more trust with owners now, even when it's someone from this very board who knows what it's like to be me. And now I'm losing confidence in my zoo self. I'm getting an intact female very soon but now I'll just be thinking about this moment that passed, wondering if being a zoo is the right thing for me. Even after all of this. And the irony in all of this is that this guy specifically told me that I worry too much, and then he proves my worrying right. And even after all this hurt he put me through, I still didn't mention him by username, although he'll know who he is when he reads this.
