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i do not wish to offend anyone with this post. do any of you feel... ashamed of who you are?

BathiaFerva said:
I've always struggled with levels of shame and disgust honestly. Sometimes I still struggle but I'm trying my best to accept myself and what I am and what I like. I don't really want to live in hatred of myself for the rest of my life. But I also don't want to never experience something I've always wanted to. I get these feelings of shame very much, but I'm working towards embracing myself.
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Glad you joined here...and are learning how to accept your inner desires and be safe in doing so. ☺️....say hi
 
Constantly. I feel disgusted with myself. But if a male animal didn't want it, they wouldn't mount, right? But then there's so much discourse and it's pounded into our heads that it's wrong and I feel so repulsed by myself, but I keep coming back.... I would love to meet others, but the utter fear drives me away. So I'm left in this weird stasis of hating myself and wanting to embrace it all at once.
 
knotluvr96 said:
Constantly. I feel disgusted with myself. But if a male animal didn't want it, they wouldn't mount, right? But then there's so much discourse and it's pounded into our heads that it's wrong and I feel so repulsed by myself, but I keep coming back.... I would love to meet others, but the utter fear drives me away. So I'm left in this weird stasis of hating myself and wanting to embrace it all at once.
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It's a hard lot for the likes of us, especially if we care about the desires and feelings of the animals and don't just consider them toys for our own pleasure. Ethics are never easy with any subject matter, and even less so for us who would lose our faces and possibly even face criminal punishment in case of discovery.

However, the way I try to rationalize it to myself is that despite how I feel about my sexuality, it's nonetheless part of me and will likely stay with me forever. Thus I at least try not to hate myself for being what I am, because it was never my choice. What we do with our sexuality in real life is another matter of course, but at least fantasizing about the matter in a way that doesn't hurt anyone, yet allows me a venue to express myself sexually, is not evil.
 
TheGreyWolf said:
It's a hard lot for the likes of us, especially if we care about the desires and feelings of the animals and don't just consider them toys for our own pleasure. Ethics are never easy with any subject matter, and even less so for us who would lose our faces and possibly even face criminal punishment in case of discovery.

However, the way I try to rationalize it to myself is that despite how I feel about my sexuality, it's nonetheless part of me and will likely stay with me forever. Thus I at least try not to hate myself for being what I am, because it was never my choice. What we do with our sexuality in real life is another matter of course, but at least fantasizing about the matter in a way that doesn't hurt anyone, yet allows me a venue to express myself sexually, is not evil.
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That's all very true. Also, like....... being gay is still punishable by death in some places. It wasn't always legal or safe in some places. So legal doesn't mean moral. But it feels that way. :( I've never forced my dogs to do anything, and my girls have literally shoved my hands out of the way so they could lick me. But it still feels like im doing something wrong.
 
Oh yeah, I feel shame all the time. And I've acted on my attraction before! It was a long time ago, when I was a teen and with the family dog. I am also trans masc, but this was before I was out as trans.

Being on testosterone, I'm horny more and I almost feel like my desire for at the very least oral from a dog is so intense.
 
I think maybe this is a feeling many get as being conditioned to what is socially “normal”. I think conservative religious based societies are probably the worst as the program is to to feel guilt and shame if anything is felt or done in any part of life and that it is sinful etc - let alone sexual activities and proclivities which is a huge taboo subject in most societies. I mean we are only a generation or two from any sex outside of marriage being frowned upon and relationships with people of different backgrounds being “unconventional”.

I think the difference here is animals will never have the voice to be able to turn around and say “hey I’m horny too, and I’m more than ok to have this relationship with the maybe odd shaped member of my pack/tribe/etc and it’s a mutually enjoyable experience”. I don’t base my morals on what governments or societies force upon me - I do base them upon do no willing harm to anyone or anything, directly or indirectly. I think if you can say that you aren’t doing harm the guilt is probably a product of a traditional conservative belief system rather than one founded in actual “oh god I’m genuinely a bad person”. BUT that’s just my opinion! ✌️
 
Life's way to short to take it so seriously. Do what makes you happy, don't hurt anyone/anything and learn to love yourself. I'm not religious in anyway so I live by this.
 
to be honest, at points, yeah. after i first got mounted i felt so dirty i couldn't even bring myself to masturbate for like... days after. as time went on though it set in that i wasn't hurting my lover or myself and nobody else suffered in any way, so i kinda just asked myself "am i really doing something wrong here???" and i decided the answer was "no."

that's what kinda led me to finally feeling at peace with my sexuality
 
I thought it was a fetish at first and felt bad about it until I fully tried it. Same thing with being bi and having gay sex for the first time. But it just felt right and now it's all I want, to settle down somewhere quiet with a cute dog or man.
 
kinkysara said:
I'm not ashamed of who I am but I'm a little confused at why I enjoy what I like, scared at times , excited and turned on by the sheer naughtyness, thrilled by the adrenaline rush I get by doing something so kinky then let down by the guilt I feel afterwards.
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I feel the same way tbh, in the moment it feels so good but after the guilt is something that hurts. But tbh as i’m new to the zoo community and as the days go by im slowly getting more comfortable with being apart of this community. It’s like one big happy family tbh.
 
For whatever reason, yes always. But not really for liking beast, not anymore anyways because most ppl I see in here are very kind and not judgmental. I just always feel inadequate, strange, different, black sheep. I have always been successful at most things, im 6'4 athletic and attractive, I have what most men would die for, yet.... Im very unhappy, because I just cant seem to figure myself out, or how to adult lol (even know ive owned 4 companies, i still feel like a lost child in this world). Ive struggled with deep depression and mood issues for 20yrs, meditated over 500hrs, cold plunges, anything healthy you can think of ive tried. And the only thing I cant figure out in my life, is how to simply wake up happy rather than wishing I hadnt woken up at all. Sometimes I wonder if this kink came from some kind of childhood trauma through multiple separated families.

I would imagine many of you struggle and many accept who you are. If you do accept yourself, I have the utmost respect for you. And those of you that dont, it takes courage to push forward so I respect you very much as well, you aren't alone. We are all riddled with trauma and challenges just trying to make it to tomorrow.

This is a post that kind of hit home. I wish it was easier for ppl like us to meet and help pick each other up and let each other know that its ok to be different and we dont have to rush to try to be successful but society forces us to play in the shadows.

Silly rant but I wish you all the best.
 
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I personally deal with shame everyday for not only my love for Zoo.. I'm so afraid if my children were to find out it would be the end of me..
But I'm also a hedonist and do not deny my body the pure pleasure of a Dog inside me..
 
CuriousK9er said:
For whatever reason, yes always. But not really for liking beast, not anymore anyways because most ppl I see in here are very kind and not judgmental. I just always feel inadequate, strange, different, black sheep. I have always been successful at most things, im 6'4 athletic and attractive, I have what most men would die for, yet.... Im very unhappy, because I just cant seem to figure myself out, or how to adult lol (even know ive owned 4 companies, i still feel like a lost child in this world). Ive struggled with deep depression and mood issues for 20yrs, meditated over 500hrs, cold plunges, anything healthy you can think of ive tried. And the only thing I cant figure out in my life, is how to simply wake up happy rather than wishing I hadnt woken up at all. Sometimes I wonder if this kink came from some kind of childhood trauma through multiple separated families.

I would imagine many of you struggle and many accept who you are. If you do accept yourself, I have the utmost respect for you. And those of you that dont, it takes courage to push forward so I respect you very much as well, you aren't alone. We are all riddled with trauma and challenges just trying to make it to tomorrow.

This is a post that kind of hit home. I wish it was easier for ppl like us to meet and help pick each other up and let each other know that its ok to be different and we dont have to rush to try to be successful but society forces us to play in the shadows.

Silly rant but I wish you all the best.
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Not silly in any way. Actually it is very important to share things like this.
 
Sometimes I feel ashamed of myself, so I try to stop thinking about being a zoophile, I even go weeks or months without watching zoo porn or opening this forum. Although, it's pointless, I always return, I can't ignore this. If I see a female dog that I think it's cute my mind immediately creates scenarios in which I'm with her, or I comeback here. Thankfully this doesn't happen as often as it once did, for this reason I believe I'm starting to completely come terms with that part of who I am.
 
Cade20 said:
Sometimes I feel ashamed of myself, so I try to stop thinking about being a zoophile, I even go weeks or months without watching zoo porn or opening this forum. Although, it's pointless, I always return, I can't ignore this. If I see a female dog that I think it's cute my mind immediately creates scenarios in which I'm with her, or I comeback here. Thankfully this doesn't happen as often as it once did, for this reason I believe I'm starting to completely come terms with that part of who I am.
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I have deleted like 5 profiles and remade them over and over so I feel you there. Always come back though. Honestly, I love the community. Ppl are real and open nobody has to hide. It feels true and authentic even know its mostly anonymous. Thanks for the kind reply as well.

I honestly wonder sometimes if we were dogs in past lives and that's why it sticks with us haha. Be gentle on yourself my friend, we aren't meant to be perfect.
 
CuriousK9er said:
I have deleted like 5 profiles and remade them over and over so I feel you there. Always come back though. Honestly, I love the community. Ppl are real and open nobody has to hide. It feels true and authentic even know its mostly anonymous. Thanks for the kind reply as well.

I honestly wonder sometimes if we were dogs in past lives and that's why it sticks with us haha. Be gentle on yourself my friend, we aren't meant to be perfect.
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I never deleted my account here. I couldn't bring myself to it. I always hoped I would forget the login and password. I never did, it would be saved somewhere. I guess that is my zoo brain not allowing myself to let go.

Maybe we were. Who knows? haha. I'll try to. Thanks for your words.
 
It's never crossed my mind to be ashamed. I've been a part of the "general" kink community since university, and it seems I'm rather adept at finding partners who either have active interest or experience; ergo, I'm fairly versed in self-preservation and cautiousness.
 
I don't know if Ashamed is the right word.. at least for anyone in the same boat as me. Because Ashamed implies you hate that you are zoo, that you wouldn't want to be. As if you could erase that you feel this way for animals entirely. I'm happy just not living in denial and have learned to accept and be happy with who I am and feel good knowing I can start making actual progress to one day hopefully find an male canine companion, or lover someday.

No I think it's more just the pessimism of not being an introvert and trying to find a way to live that life comfortably knowing you can't say a thing to another soul. Not your family, your friends. Never being able to have excitement about meeting other zoos like you without the fear it could be a sting, or a trap. Putting in so much work to ensure no one will attach me to this account, and my posts on here. Or the awkwardness of always watching everyone around me be in completely healthy relationships. Hetero, Gay, Transgender, etc. Never being able to express pride in myself, never able to share things I've learned about zoo sex, zoo health, zoo lifestyle. Etc.

I hear people say that if you do anything sexual, or have any desire to in the zoo life you shouldn't have to express it because it's no one's business .But I don't think that's the point? I don't need to share details telling everyone how ecstatic Ill be when I finally take a dogs knot. But what about finding the right dog, finding one I'm happy to live with and that we may have that connection. What if there's no sexual component but we are intimate or I consider them my life companion, ya know? I can't ever tell anyone that in my life. Ever. Without taking a huge gamble that the people I'm telling won't try and use it against me because even if I wasn't afraid of everyone hating me, which I am. I am certainly afraid of going to jail because of bigotry. Like this.. it's not fair. Like surely anyone that feels how I feel must know what it's like going to a family event. A community meet for like furries as an example, or a get together with friends, or close Co-Workers. Hearing them all talk about their partners. Being proud of their sexuality. Hearing them openly sharing stories of doing things with their partners, and knowing you can't. It's just... Why is it like this.

I came out as gay many years ago, and when I did I had unanimous support, from family, and friends, even if people hated me I had people in my life to give me reassurance they were here. Ya know. Forget the ones that want to be bigots. I got praise for openly telling people like dick. I got acceptance. Here? I can't even meet someone in this community without fearing jail time. You sadly sacrifice a lot to be yourself. To be happy.

So no. I'm not ashamed. I will never be able to not feel this way, and I want to feel this way. I don't want that to change. I just want to meet others like me and to be able to tell people at the very minimum I do have a deeper connection with animals without being scrutinized by virtually. Everyone.
 
Goozeflzh said:
I am a 23 y/o transguy who have always been into girls.
I also happen to have a rather low sex drive, and I am very content with being single and I do not crave for any sort of intimacy. Especially not emotionally.
But at the same time, I have also always been into male dogs. Which is weird because I'm not into human males at all really. At least I don't think so. I consider myself straight. Seriously. I am so confused by this.

I do not live by myself at the moment, and I have only been with a dog yeaaaars ago, but ever since then I have had, uh, a craving. But I hate it. It makes me feel ashamed. I don't understand why. Is it the taboo of it all? What else could it be? I want to keep it behind closed doors, but internally acting out on it would make me feel so ashamed, even though I really want to act on it someday.

Does anyone else feel the same?
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After the first time yes I cannot lie I was super ashamed I couldn't believe I had done it and what made it worse I could still feel him inside me. I told myself I tried it and that's the end but I also had to resign myself to the fact it had been amazing! Wasn't long until I was wanting it again and as time went on I felt human females were almost meant to be having sex with dogs because it felt too "right" to me.
 
If you really still feel this way, please seek some help. Shame it's something you got indoctrinated into you. No you don't need to feel shame for anything. It's the same a teenager feels shame for sudden reactions of his body to optical triggers. It's natural. And you should feel any shame about any sexuality of you.

But if you yourself don't want any part of this then you need to take action. (Therapeutic help might be the best way)


Also, it's a lot like @KissyGal said, when you know about the pleasures, they won't suddenly go away, the urges will return.

And please don't suddenly adopt a dog because there's an itch that needs to be scratched.
 
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