ZooeyZeta
Tourist
I have this odd lump in my throat, kinda like the nauseous feeling you get before throwing up, all day....... Funny thing is I just joined today and was fine yesterday ? though I have checked out this forum for the past couple days, and each time I feel a strong mix of nervous and excited....... I can't help but wonder if it's because I'm new enough to being in such a large forum of like minded people that I feel this way, although I was reading some offsite material about zoophilia and had the same reaction. So I can't help but wonder if there's still some part of me that hasn't fully accepted who I am yet and has been kinda drawn away by the societal taboo surrounding it, or I get insecure with myself in a sense when I hear others talking about it. The only way though is to keep visiting these sites, I don't feel terrible or anything, it's actually somewhat of a pleasant feeling even if it is slightly uncomfortable lol