Soooo my whole stick about it is kind of weird.... Ive tried explaining it to former female partners but its weird but my mindset is this:
Is it gay? Technically yes by standard points, male penis in a male mouth
But.... At my first time (in my young brain at the time) i wanted to repay my furry friend for blowing me, but the shame made sense kept telling myself "im not gay, i like girls, im just doing this with an animal."
Then it progressed further and i wanted to do more and more (be penetrated) so i made the excuse that if i dress in lingerie/like a girl i can pretend i am the girl and its not gay.
Makes absolutely no sense but that was my mind back then, if i started with a female companion might've been different but here i am now, exclusive with male animals, dressing up, and loving it...
But to the original point yeah, its gay, and its awesome