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When did you accept that you liked bestiality?

cl0ud said:
Did you ever have feelings of guilt for being into it? How did you get over those feelings and come to accept that you're into it? Curious about hearing peoples stories, as it took me a long time to be comfortable with the fact that I'm into it. I do still have some pangs of guilt, but I dunno, I feel it's not worth worrying about something that you cannot change.
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I only really started to accept just now
 
As early as I can remember I have been attracted to horses....this was was early 60’s....yes I’m old...but this was of course before the internet....I did not know anyone like me. I realized I was gay too but in reality I was more attracted to horses than humans. But tried to fit in....at that time you could not talk about being gay. It wasn’t until the internet 20 or so years ago that I read about others like me. Went through a lot of guilt....because I tried to be normal....
It just never worked for me....kept wondering why this is so bad.....horses loved the attention...I loved it too...we ride horses....make them work....and even kill them for meat or other uses....that is ok with society and the laws....but if you have sex with them...it is abuse and subject to prison...where is the logic....
We force horses to breed against their will all the time...tie a mare up hobble her....even twitch her....to accept the stallion....to rape her....but if I lovingly kiss her, and fondle her, and she enjoys the attention....and backs into me....that is animal abuse by law....no consent?....where is the consent to all the other things....her backing into me, dribbling urine....winking....lifting her tail....
Surely is conscientious.
Anyway the bad laws really get me down, from time to time...that is where the stress and hurt, comes in.
 
AriesAngyl said:
For me it took a long time. When I 1st experimented and experienced being. With a dog I had a lot of guilt and shame. I kept going back which in a way increased the pleasure and the connection but at the same time also increased my guilt about the entire thing. It was my biggest secret and I was always super paranoid about someone finding out.

fast forward about 18 years…life passes…I have my second dog with which I am intimate. Of course, that in and of itself is a story, but for me it was the covid. Spending long periods of time with my Shepard and not seeing people in person I became comfortable in my own skin, I became comfortable with the concept of zoo and that comfort allowed us to really connect and bond.

I don’t feel that intense guilt or shame anymore as I have finally come to terms with it.
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Thank you for sharing. It takes accepting who you are regardless of what you believe society feels towards you. I remember having deep guilt for years, and then realizing “how can I not accept myself, it’s who I am”. I think realizing that this is something inherent in us rather than a choice. The choice part of it is us choosing to accept and love ourselves for who we are.
 
sarahsingletono98 said:
It took me a long time or felt like a long time. I was young dumb and stupid (no regrets now) but let someone push me into it when I was not yet ready to accept it.
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I honestly don’t think any of us were ready to accept who or what we were at the time. Our issue is that our society tells us it’s not bad but forbidden. Doesn’t make what you went through okay, but I do believe we all go through or at least most go through a similar process of guilt and even self hate and disgust. That part is external while internally we struggle with how we feel about zoophile which is different than the shame we feel because of society.
 
SleepyPuppy said:
I honestly don’t think any of us were ready to accept who or what we were at the time. Our issue is that our society tells us it’s not bad but forbidden. Doesn’t make what you went through okay, but I do believe we all go through or at least most go through a similar process of guilt and even self hate and disgust. That part is external while internally we struggle with how we feel about zoophile which is different than the shame we feel because of society.
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So true. I was hating myself from Every angle - that i had done it, that i couldnt share it, that i had frlt tricked, that i didnt wait till i knew more, that i had not done more sexually before i got involved with it.

Then i felt ashamed when i had to bottle it up because i could not join in "normal" conversations.

Hate and guilt and shame when i would start thinking of it again. The more i thought about it and felt bad about it, the faster i caved into it.

It took a while to accept it on a regular level. There are still times tjose old feelings come to the surface - usually on first dates or something like that
 
There were two phases: from 14 -20 I had the feeling that this kink hindered to have gf. Not just ons. Afterwards it was a shadow, a cloud that hung above me while finding out if my partners are open… in my mid 40 I confronted every possible relationsship right from the beginning. Some took it some didn‘t… now I am Finals in a healthy partnership with no room for secrets… my gf as a former dog owner is open to a possible adventure but not activly seeking due to a lack of experience
 
My first exposure to zoo was in Nancy Friday's breakthrough book about women's sexual fantasies, My Secret Garden. I cannot deny that the stories may have put the idea into my conscience, or at least made me receptive at some level.

Acceptance is a funny thing... you do not have to confront the issue until you take it from fantasy to reality... and over time, it is easier to reach acceptance because you already have crossed whatever "line" you believed there was and when the sky didn't fall and you were cast into Hell immediately... you start to see the line is an artificial constraint.
 
sarahsingletono98 said:
So true. I was hating myself from Every angle - that i had done it, that i couldnt share it, that i had frlt tricked, that i didnt wait till i knew more, that i had not done more sexually before i got involved with it.

Then i felt ashamed when i had to bottle it up because i could not join in "normal" conversations.

Hate and guilt and shame when i would start thinking of it again. The more i thought about it and felt bad about it, the faster i caved into it.

It took a while to accept it on a regular level. There are still times tjose old feelings come to the surface - usually on first dates or something like that
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I wish you peace. I hope you can always find it within yourself to be okay with who you are and that you continue to life yourself first and foremost.
Be well.
 
I hardly even remember. I do remember feeling somewhat disgusted by it for a while, but coming to love it is very blurred.

I kept it to myself for all these years aside from 2018. I'd met someone and over the weeks our conversations just loosely lead into bestiality more and more. It was a joy getting to explore these feelings with her (through dialogue only), but sadly it didn't last.

And now I'm here and this forum has blew my world right open!
 
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808zoo said:
I was simply too young at the time to realise that it was frowned upon. Of course, I still hid it from my family at the time, as I had been taught that stuff down there was forbidden. As to later becoming an adult, I simply accepted it. Not much else to do. It is incredibly difficult to find normal partners that accept it, however. I’ve only had one partner that encouraged it and he was very weird. My current partner has no idea, though he did ask me about it once in an accusing tone. I denied everything. ?
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Big hug
 
dewdrop80 said:
I was in my 30's when I discovered I found it arousing. I was at a friend's and we watched a doc on Ytube about how common it is for men in Colombia to have sex with donkeys and as I sat there watching I started to get a hard on. I was surprised by this.

When I got home that night I do my usual routine of smoking a joint and then having a good JO session with edging while watching porn but then I started thinking about the doc and before I knew it I was watching zoo porn and then I found this wonderful site. I myself am not attracted to animals and I think I get turned on because of the taboo nature of it for me. I love watching men have sex with animals. Interestingly I'm a gay man but love watching men who have sex with female animals and if I would ever have sex with a dog or a horse it would be with the female. I had a rule in the beginning though as that was I would only stroke to watching zoo porn but not cum...to some reason in my mind if I didn't cum I don't feel as guilty lol well now that's changed, now I just let the rope fly because some vids are just too fucking hot!!
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Say it’s cool, u could be like me I’m gay with human but bisexual with zoo
 
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beckoningcall said:
For me I first experienced zoo play when I was 14. While I accepted it. I have emotions that come and go with accepting what I love about zoo play.
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I do think that can be the same for a great deal of us....we love it so much....don’t
See anything wrong with it...hard to deal with society knowing how much they hate us. And of course the bad laws...I have been this way my whole life....not going to change now.
 
Really when we analyze it...being a zoo for us us just as natural and right as someone who is “normal”....attracted to humans....we now as a society regard being gay for man or woman is also “normal” . If it is a human it is all fine.
Well our normal is an animal. Society rejects us....bad laws against us...but
The fact still is our attraction is there ....I think we are just made this way.
It does take something to maybe trigger these feelings.... same with non zoos...
Around 12,13,or so they are getting attracted to humans. As early I can remember was attracted to horses...specifically foamy horse mouths with the bit. Why I do not know....I just was.....through my life many things came with it... other species, attractions, and many wonderful attractions. It is not something that you can take or leave it. It is part of us as being a zoo. It is always on our mind......maybe more it seems than a non zoo. We certainly have more out there to attract us....it is definitely a sexual orientation. It is going to be a long time before it is recognized as such. ......if ever. Young people nowadays have the internet to research their feelings. I did not when I was very young. I think a lot about is the internet responsible for turning people to being a zoo. Well most likely it is the trigger that awakens the zoo feelings already there.
 
cl0ud said:
Did you ever have feelings of guilt for being into it? How did you get over those feelings and come to accept that you're into it? Curious about hearing peoples stories, as it took me a long time to be comfortable with the fact that I'm into it. I do still have some pangs of guilt, but I dunno, I feel it's not worth worrying about something that you cannot change.
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From a very early age I was hyper sexual. I can remember being very young the first time I watched my very first porn and instantly became hooked. Oddly enough I first learned of bestiality in my 4/5 grade history class and that very night had one of my very first actual wet dreams in which I really did cum in my sleep. For me personally, I never questioned or felt hung up on the worries if it was wrong or right, although I knew and understood that it was something people were not suppose to do and those that did were looked down upon I did not care. I personally consider myself to be a sane, intelligent descent human being and a productive citizen in my community and country and while I do not automatically or easily open up about being turned on immensely by bestiality. My reluctance is more out of not wanting to have to defend my tastes to people that are close minded and judgmental and have to deal w/ the annoyance of it all rather then from any shame or quilt felt. Truth is, we like what we like, why should you feel any more guilty for enjoying the pleasures of watching or engaging in bestiality then the amount of quilt you feel being attracted to brunettes over blondes, enjoying anal more then vaginal, preferring to orgasm inside your lover or out, etc. please do yourself a favor and don’t ever apologize or feel shame in any way for the things that turn you on. As long as you aren’t hurting anyone (against their wishes). Don’t deny those parts of yourself because others may not like them. That’s why they make chocolate and vanilla.
 
My feelings for dogs started blossoming when I was around 13....always just felt different, felt close to them. Whenever is go over friends or families houses that owned dogs I'd spend the whole time with them just deepening our bond. It wasn't until I started working at a shelter at 15 that those feelings blossomed into something more .... blossomed into love....I never once felt bad about my feelings because they felt so right. I knew the world would not accept that or think the same but I always thought....fuck em it's making me happy and it feels to right to ignore. So I didn't ignore it, I embraced it and lost my verginity to a dog... discovered my first love in that doggo.
 
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