Is anybody else just fuckin lonely?

[Ariin]

I feel extremely lonely quite often, even in company of decent people. I've noticed that I instantly feel a lot less lonely in the company of people who share my affinity for horses, though.

 

[Lurven]

Always the loner i know that feeling, but when i am with my animals i am a happy camper they are the only life forms i trust to never leave me

 

[Panda Chen]

Lonely yes very much so I do have some local friends I hang out with but my brain keep's on telling me "they don't like you and when you're not around they talk about you and enjoy it when you don't come out" so between that and other demon's yeah I am lonely. For the most part I keep myself busy with work and gamin

They are likely not thinking those things. If anything they probably aren't thinking of you at all. People tend to focus on themselves and their lives.
I personally don't think people don't want me around but I'm the friend people go to with problems or when they want to talk about heavy subjects but I'm not the friend people want to hang out with. I'm not the "fun" friend and when I am it's a social mask and very draining. I'm included when it's convenient or when people feel sorry for me but I'm like a peripheral friend. Not a main character. Accepting who I am isn't just about being zoo. It's also about this stuff and accepting what my place is when it comes to others and learning to be okay with that. Have to let people care about you how they are able to not how you think they should.

 

[humperwumper]

I have a high need for social contact and closeness but life has got in the way of that quite a lot or I got in the way of myself. I miss having a dog just for the company though. I hope to sort that out soon at least.

 

[Panda Chen]

Hope you are able to soon. Dogs are often very good companions.

 

[Demigod]

Lonely yes very much so I do have some local friends I hang out with but my brain keep's on telling me "they don't like you and when you're not around they talk about you and enjoy it when you don't come out" so between that and other demon's yeah I am lonely. For the most part I keep myself busy with work and gaming.

Demons? Just what in the hell do you mean by demons? Those things don't exist so unless you know something I don't then please do enlighten me.

 

[iwanttobeabottom]

Demons? Just what in the hell do you mean by demons? Those things don't exist so unless you know something I don't then please do enlighten me.

It's a euphemism for other issues that people deal with, without actually naming what they are, for whatever reason.

 

[Demigod]

It's a euphemism for other issues that people deal with, without actually naming what they are, for whatever reason.

I appreciate the concise answer. Those are hard to come by on this forum for whatever reason.

 

[Warum]

Yep all the time

 

[iwanttobeabottom]

No point. to you they "don't exist" but to myself they do in the form of dark thoughts and in lucid dreams.

I am far too familiar with the first and far too unfamiliar with the second.

 

[iwanttobeabottom]

I've been lonely since early childhood. I distinctly remember getting bullied and excluded as far back as third grade, if not further, and it kept up since.

Now I don't know how to talk to people, so I go to work, keep to myself all day in my room by myself, then go home and spend all night by myself.

Rinse and repeat ad nauseum.

 

[Panda Chen]

I've been lonely since early childhood. I distinctly remember getting bullied and excluded as far back as third grade, if not further, and it kept up since.

Now I don't know how to talk to people, so I go to work, keep to myself all day in my room by myself, then go home and spend all night by myself.

Rinse and repeat ad nauseum.

Maybe step out of your comfort zone on occasion. It will be uncomfortable but that's just part of growth. Doesn't have to be big. Say Hi to someone you wouldn't normally. Just something you wouldn't ordinarily do and then go back to the routine. Little steps.

 

[iwanttobeabottom]

Maybe step out of your comfort zone on occasion. It will be uncomfortable but that's just part of growth. Doesn't have to be big. Say Hi to someone you wouldn't normally. Just something you wouldn't ordinarily do and then go back to the routine. Little steps.

I can't even give people genuine, non-sexual, non-creepy COMPLIMENTS without them giving me weird looks.

There's no point in bothering, now. I just put off whatever fucked up vibes that other people pick up on.

 

[Panda Chen]

I can't even give people genuine, non-sexual, non-creepy COMPLIMENTS without them giving me weird looks.

There's no point in bothering, now. I just put off whatever fucked up vibes that other people pick up on.

Things always can change. Sometimes very slowly but they do.
Also maybe don't be as concerned about what others think of you. People look at me weird all the time but I apparently make an impact on them as they remember me whether I want them too or not. I think of the one meme that reads "I learned from Tetris that when you fit in you disappear." I don't really fit in anywhere so I just say what I want to say and people can like it or not. That's on them, not me.

 

[iwanttobeabottom]

Also maybe don't be as concerned about what others think of you.

It's not that I care what they think of me. I really don't, and the stuff I wear and the way I sometimes conduct myself in public speaks to that.

It's just that even trying to be nice to people gets me weird looks. If I can't even try to be nice to someone without them side eyeing me, or sometimes responding with expressions of outright horror, then I'm not gonna waste my time and theirs.

I don't really fit in anywhere so I just say what I want to say and people can like it or not. That's on them, not me.

Agreed. But like I was saying, I just give off vibes to people that say "STAY FAR THE FUCK AWAY UNDER ALL CIRCUMSTANCES!!"

Fuck it.

 

[Fit2BTied]

I dunno if it's my age, my sexual interests, my complete loss of all interest in the things I used to love or my personality, but I feel like all I do is distance myself and push people away when all I want is to connect.

Anyone else feeling like this or am I just going insane on my own?

Yep. Lonely as fuck but I rarely leave the house. I'm not pushing people away, I've just not made the effort to reach out in a long time. I'm trying to change this though.

 

[Tommiecat]

Depends on the day, but humans are social creatures so I think everyone gets a little lonely every now and then. As for people so many of them can be problematic and egocentric... so I only have 4 close friends ?

 

[lilyz00]

I do feel lonely but at the same time I'm comfortable in that loneliness. It's weird.

 

[Ladyofthenight94]

I think a lot of people feel lonely since the whole covid pandemic, loads of people became introverted and just stopped socializing, and now that everything is back to normal, it feels like a chore to actually go and meet people! Hahaha maybe that's just my POV!

 

[littleblonde]

I think all this can make you feel lonely, but you aren’t on your own ?

 

[iwanttobeabottom]

I think all this can make you feel lonely, but you aren’t on your own ?

My days spent alone in a room at my job and my nights alone in my apartment beg to differ.

 

[Duckkus]

I think a lot of people feel lonely since the whole covid pandemic, loads of people became introverted and just stopped socializing, and now that everything is back to normal, it feels like a chore to actually go and meet people! Hahaha maybe that's just my POV!

I get what you mean, perhaps it might just be that your own preferences for what you determine to be good quality company have changed? I've always kept my circle small but I love going to social events where I can still just be my genuine self, don't have the same tolerance for faking niceties with people anymore

 

[ausbeast420]

That's what brought me here I think, Im surrounded by good people all the time, I have never had a problem with finding friends or lovers but keeping one part of yourself locked up for as long as I have them there is a part of you that is always alone, in a crowd, in a private setting or even in the bedroom, I feel less alone when I'm around animals tho. My dog keeps me from getting to deep in the loaner funk

 

[dogandponyshow]

I think everyone gets a little lonely every now and then.

Turn around… every now and then I get a little bit lonely and you’re never comin’ ‘round

 

[ausbeast420]

Turn around… every now and then I get a little bit lonely and you’re never comin’ ‘round

Turn around brIGHT EYES

 

[iwanttobeabottom]

Turn around brIGHT EYES

My eyes are cold, dark, and dead from years of loneliness.

 

[horselover124578]

I dunno if it's my age, my sexual interests, my complete loss of all interest in the things I used to love or my personality, but I feel like all I do is distance myself and push people away when all I want is to connect.

Anyone else feeling like this or am I just going insane on my own?

hi wanna chat

 

[MrEpicTurret]

I have a girlfriend, but i get you, i feel scared of sharing this with her, even when she knows and accepts me being weird with my other kinks or interests, so i sometimes feel lonely in fact since i dont have much people that i could talk to about this stuff.

 

[Ladyofthenight94]

I get what you mean, perhaps it might just be that your own preferences for what you determine to be good quality company have changed? I've always kept my circle small but I love going to social events where I can still just be my genuine self, don't have the same tolerance for faking niceties with people anymore

Well, I do firmly believe that the older you get, the smaller your friend circle gets... It was my 30th a few weeks ago, and the numbers have dropped drastically in comparison to my 21st and that seems to be the trend now adays with the majority of people in my age range.

Obviously life gets in the way from meeting people, and when you work full-time, at the end of the week you just want time for yourself to relax with a bottle or two of wine haha

And I 100% agree about the fake/self absorbed/gloating people! hahahaha

 

[nicht9]

I have a girlfriend, but i get you, i feel scared of sharing this with her, even when she knows and accepts me being weird with my other kinks or interests, so i sometimes feel lonely in fact since i dont have much people that i could talk to about this stuff.

I relate with that so much ?