wood_thrush
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I think I am still coming to terms with it. I really want to try more sexual things with animals, although right now in my life I think that has to take a back seat.
Pretty much exact same thing for me. I've had thoughts for years but just kept pushing them aside until more recently.I think I am still coming to terms with it. I really want to try more sexual things with animals, although right now in my life I think that has to take a back seat.
I feel for you and would offer you a hug if you wanted one! I think you are brave for living your authentic selfThe act itself was shockingly easy to embrace. What has been hardest for me is the guilt, and I can’t exactly put a finger on where the guilt comes from. I care about whether or not my animal companions are consenting (I sincerely believe that animals can consent) and if my companion does not want something, it does not happen. So I’m not worried that I’m hurting my animal companions because I am watchful to be sure I’m not. I think the guilt comes from the understanding that engaging in this kind of activity runs a real risk of destroying my life and driving a wedge between myself and my loved ones. Why trade every valued friendship, every family member I care about, for this seemingly very base and (according to others) reprehensible thing? I suppose because it’s not reprehensible to me. It feels pure, natural, sweet, wonderful. But few people in my life would ever understand.
I never thought too much about it, it just happened (and keeps happening)How long did it take to admit to yourself you liked dogsex or beastiality in general? Then after how long until you tried it or it became enjoyable?
For me I secretly grew up with these feelings, which didn't manifest into a state of acknowledgment until I was around 16, and it wasn't until I was 22 that I got to experience it for the first time, and 1000's of times after that with a few different dogs over the years. I remember on my 17th or 18th birthday my parents bought me a little book about human reproduction and relationships and I got SO ANGRY and offended by it. Of course, I never said anything about it, but I was very repulsed. By this time the canine drive within myself was the only thing that I was living for on a psychological and even spiritual level. It's been a very deep journey for me, and now, I have a relationship with Dogmen as well, not a sexual one, but we are "talking", they share their thoughts with me in subtle ways, that have been intensifying over the past few years. I am now in my early 50's. Don't have a dog these days, because finance just doesn't permit it at this time. My deep love for canines has grown into something I could have never imagined in my earlier days, having a connection with the great canines, and yes, that is one of the bigger reasons I don't have a dog at this time, I am in service to nature, my path has led me to this. Never the less, I do still feel strongly about settling back down with a dog at some point in the future. Still a single bachelor as I have always been, and still VERY MUCH a loner at heart. I enjoy just hiking through the woods, camping out, and talking to nature. Wisdom is knowledge in the absence of ignorance. I am beginning to understand more what that really means.How long did it take to admit to yourself you liked dogsex or beastiality in general? Then after how long until you tried it or it became enjoyable?
Thanks for sharing your thoughts slater. Your feelings of guilt, aren't really guilt at all, it is the programming that we all went through, just that some of us were more resistant to it than others, more perceptive towards what else life had to offer. Through forced education, we were brainwashed to only have feelings towards other people, and to only honor and cherish other people, which is where a lot of our problems today stem from. Pink Floyd's song "Another brick in the wall" sums it up nicely. Human glorification, as I like to call it, is the meme of society today, and it is not good for any of us, nor for our futures. Many people in general, have lost their connection with the natural world, which is why so many stray away from that which is good for all things not just our good. You see, for me, zoophilia is just as much a philosophy about life, as it is an attraction. I see the wrongs committed by my own kind towards so many things, and people still flaunt around like they are the kings of this world...it disgusts me. I stand far apart from those kinds of people, and this connection to the wilder side, is what helps me to stay sane in such a crazy world, where people just aren't using their hearts and heads like they should be. If people really thought things through in a deeper way, they would see that people like us are among the real peace makers in life. We are not the ones out there murdering people or breaking into homes. We just want to be closer to life, and for some of us, humans just totally turn us off, whether from a philosophical standpoint or just being uninterested. Like you say, most people don't understand us. When I was between 12 - 15, I had a dream of a snake like being swirling around me, and there was music playing, and I also ejaculated, and it was a profound experience. I was marked by something, by nature, or by the Dogmen perhaps, because during my early teens, I had a very close imaginary friend, a newfoundland I called NUFF. I am still coming to a deeper understanding of why I am who I am, although, it has ALWAYS felt natural to me, I never felt guilt, I felt, different definitely, I acknowledged that I had something in my software code that was apart from most everyone else, to feel this close to animals, and also it felt natural, to distance myself from people. I do tend to think there is more to it....like there are only certain people "chosen" for this. Not saying this to be prophetic, or preachy, no, just sharing my thoughts. When asked if I think I am better than other people, my answer is usually, that other people could be better, if they wanted to be, if their mind and heart was open to be, and being better isn't necessarily feeling close to animals like we do, being better is balancing ourselves with the natural world, balancing our heart and mind with the wilds, respecting and embracing life for what it is. In a way, people like us ARE that balance, when other people can't be or choose not to be. There has to be an element of good to overcome the bad, and that good can often be perceived as something negative.The act itself was shockingly easy to embrace. What has been hardest for me is the guilt, and I can’t exactly put a finger on where the guilt comes from. I care about whether or not my animal companions are consenting (I sincerely believe that animals can consent) and if my companion does not want something, it does not happen. So I’m not worried that I’m hurting my animal companions because I am watchful to be sure I’m not. I think the guilt comes from the understanding that engaging in this kind of activity runs a real risk of destroying my life and driving a wedge between myself and my loved ones. Why trade every valued friendship, every family member I care about, for this seemingly very base and (according to others) reprehensible thing? I suppose because it’s not reprehensible to me. It feels pure, natural, sweet, wonderful. But few people in my life would ever understand.