knottyKaite
Tourist
This is my exact reaction. I felt extreme guilt for thoughts, wants/desires and eventually giving in. I always was like “ what is wrong with me” but I kept giving in to wants/ desire even with the guilt that was already there and the guilt that would eventually come.It took me a really long time too. At 1st it was a rush of emotions and feelings including being scared and nervous and feeling guilty as well as excited and aroused.
I had to mature as a woman and person and become comfortable in my own skin before I could be comfortable and accept my zoo behaviors ….
Eventually (and I don’t really know how except over time maybe) I made my piece with this part of me. I came to realize that it’s just something for me and doggo, no one is getting hurt as well as I just really enjoy the sex. I’ve always loved sex and been super sexual. I’ve always had kinda wild sexual thoughts and desires (I’m naturally super curious about experiences) and I guess I eventually just give in to trying things. Super happy I did after all these years, even with all the feelings and emotions that I had to got through. Definitely was a battle to get to the mindset I have now about it, but it’s been worth the personal battles.