I had many of the same tendencies and desires altho I remained married and straight until I was about 48. Finally I could resist it not longer and decided I had to address my increasing desires for being with another man and intense craving for a cock. So at 48 I found another man on line and decided to meet. I did not know what to expect but I had firmly made up my mind that I just HAD to go thru with it, no matter how nervous I was. Fortunately the man was a well experience older gentleman who treated me very good and gentle, breaking me in. I was able to satisfy my intense cravings, worshipping and deeply tasting his cock as well as being penetrated and bred by him. I am so glad I fought my being scared and nervous and went through with it. I wish I had acted on my urges many years earlier. Although still married, I still love to be with another man. As for being with an animal, that is another phase of my sexual life.