justbrowsing81
Tourist
See just you saying you don't believe much in men anymore and having this attitude about his treatment as if it's something he deserves says it all about your point of view and how unhealthy it is. You justify training him into submission by insinuating that he did the very same to you which is literally pitching the idea that two wrongs make a right and childish in philosophy. Sometimes what people want isn't what is what's best for their health and your attitude implicates you seem to know it's not what's best for him and don't care.
It's kind of strange how you regard yourself as the victim of your husband's sexual training while also having absolute control of the relationship. You admit to creating a reward system, you admit to training this man. Kind of seems like it started as a hot wife fetish that YOU pushed into cuckolding all while justifying his expense as being his own fault. Cuckolding as a fetish is fine, because it's what makes him happy. What's not fine is you genuinely viewing him as lesser than you. Like you clearly judge him for his submissive behavior and act like it's something he is doing wrong when he isn't, especially when you pair that information with his wrong doing such as withholding you from sex, which I consider wrong if you weren't also consenting to a similar dynamic which you clearly weren't.I will start with saying that it is not my fault :
1) if he felt less important because he started a challenge in his mind already knowing the results regarding the performance
2) if before entering this lifestyle i was told almost every day that i "NEEDED" to be mounted by a proper size dog
3) if for some time he almost became a dog sitter for his friends and convince me......
4) if he seemed to be so happy/satisfied in JUST watching me while being mounted
Now if i became zoo exclusive and consider my furry partners better than hubby i can't blame myself.
Certain facts can't be changed, and as you can see there is always an explanation.