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When did you accept that you liked bestiality?

OhioCountryBoy said:
I've been into it since a young age. I've luckily never felt ashamed of it, but hate having to hide that side of myself out of fear of society. I normally hold nothing back about myself to others I care about, but have to with this aspect.
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I’m in the same boat but add the shame back on for good measure … lol
 
Walking down a country road a late spring afternoon, turned my head and a stallion was standing in the field staring at me, fully erect cock repeatedly slapping his belly, as if to say: “ You and I both know that you’re a bitch for animal cock”. This intense, calm feeling of submission came over me, I sprang a boner, kept on walking, never averting my eyes from the new deity that was to rule my life from now on. Was aware of the zoo aspect of myths, legends and porn, but this was visceral, primal
 
Pretty much the same as what I posted in another thread here earlier. I have always been zoo and eventually realized this and luck had it I made some wonderful connections that helped me become comfotable with myself and proud to be who I am.
 
In my early teens I started to get interested in dogs and horses, but couldn't give it a place. Then throughout my teens, while my friends were talking about girls they wanted to date - or bragged about their latest conquest - I stayed silent. Somehow I realised that my feelings were not mainstream, so I tried to hide it. As a student, I dated, got a girlfriend, even registered with a dating site, but by the time I left the roaring 20s to the thrilling 30s, I accepted that I have sexual and romantic interests in mares.
 
I found it when I was 14 I think? I can't remember how but I did, I watched for like a few months and told myself it was awful and then stopped, I found it again a few years ago and haven't looked back.
 
I found an interest when I was still young, so I guess I never had that feeling of disgust because I didn’t know any better. Still nervous about trying, though- mostly just afraid of being caught.
 
I don't think I've ever had any guilt or second thoughts about it. The lady who mentored me let me watch her get mounted and knotted. After she was done and cleaned up asked if I would like to try it. She got an enthusiastic YES! The next day she helped me prepare and then let her lab mount me. I had no idea what i was in for.
It was pain and pleasure in extraordinary doses. Then it was just pleasure. Then it was orgasmic as the swollen knot set me off. I was in a euphoric state cumming, but looking between legs I was confused as the cum ran out of my cock, but it was totally limp. But I was loving all the feelings and orgasmic pleasure. The only thing I thought when he was done with me, "When can I do this again?"
 
I would have to say very early on. It started first in school learning about Greek and Roman Gods. Stories about how Zeus would sneak down to earth disguised as different animals in order to have sex w/ human woman peaked my interest. I’d imagine how it would look and how the women reacted and things like that. Then in the back of my dads porn mags among the ads for videos their would always be animal farm this or girls on the farm that. The single pictures Alone would get me rock hard and I’d day dream about actually ordering one when I was old enough and what those videos would look like. Then the wonderful world of the internet came. The very first porn site I looked for of course was bestiality and from the very first site I clicked on I was totally hooked. Honestly I’ve never felt ashamed of my enjoyment of it. Never felt I was weird or fucked up or anything if the sort. I still don’t truthfully although I did learn very quickly that not everyone shared my same enthusiasm for it as I did. To me it seems perfectly natural and as normal as any other sex act. While I’m not ashamed of my deeply intense enjoyment from watching a beautiful woman freely and willingly giving herself over to the pleasures of bestiality, I am cautious w/ whom I share that knowledge w/. Just because I am not ashamed of it does not mean I feel the need or want to have to defend it or the character of person I am.
 
Searched for it at the internet out of interest. Felt very guilty finding, watching and masturbating to it for the first time. But with the years, I accepted it and here we are now.
 
Honestly I've come to terms with it a bit in the last few years. I had a bad poly relationship with a narcissist and abuser... And the same people went on to scam some kid out of tens of thousands of dollars. And they're still considered acceptable in the local social circle after doing that.
At that point I just lost concern about what people or society thought of me. If they're fine with people being hurt, why should they care when no one's hurt? Why should I care?
 
As a young boy I first experimented with a female dog simply out of curiosity, but that seemed to open the door to the possibilities of other animals. It was such an enjoyable experience that I had to explore what I could enjoy together with other animals. Growing up on a farm gave me the opportunity and I soon came to know what it was like to join with a mare, then some heifers, and finally enjoyed sows. All were very pleasurable and I could tell the animals also either enjoyed or didn't mind the attention. That was decades ago, and I still have the desire and rare opportunity to enjoy a zoo experience. In my opinion it is just the way I am wired and I wouldn't change a thing. I do appreciate forums like this that allow me to share this joy that I otherwise cannot.
 
When I was younger I used to.babysit someone that had a spaniel, I bent down to put a video on and he mounted me but obviously being fully clothed nothing happened. I was only 14 at the time, and I let him use my hand for a while, panicked when I saw his penis stuck outside his body by the knot...

I digress, that was my first time of anything happening and I had a few similar experiences after that of wanking dogs off. I never felt guilt, just excitement, I mean, if they didn't want to do it then they wouldn't, right?

I've spent the remainder of my time secretly hoping that I'd find an owner and be taken properly, but everyone has either been too far away or chickened out at the last minute. I have people that know me IRL that know I like it, but they've never been in a position to help unfortunately.
 
I was in my late teens and my mom's friends needed someone to house sit and help take care of their German Shepherds. Take them for walks, keep them company. One evening I decided to stay the night, and I found out these boys were interested in something more. It was very, very clumsy, but it was the first time...seeing, holding and sucking a dogs dick. They were also very willing to help me relieve my own sexual tensions. I didn't get a chance to try anything anal, but looking back, I kind of have to wonder if my mom's friends...weren't into the lifestyle.
 
I have been for a very long time, but it took four steps for me to accept it. The first, that I become aware of it. The second, I realize that it wasn't just an teenager delusion. The third, that I assimilate it, and that I end up accepting it, which was not easy, because I was trying to bury it deep inside me.
And then comes the fourth, ... she's a dog who definitely opened my eyes and who quickly and deeply understood me.
Now, I'm, well, let's say, fine with it. I'm still keeping it hidden deep into myself, but not in the same way. When I can enjoy it fully, I do it without hesitation. I even have a few ZV contacts with whom I chat, even if there are few. I am very suspicious, probably a little too much, long live the paranoia!
 
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