You told her what?I told her in early hours.
That's I'm into zooYou told her what?
I'm in limbo, told mine and our sex life is BORING AF. We have boring sex, kinda wish I was in your situation. Then I had the opportunity to find someone similar in sexuality. I miss my ex's who would at least watch it.She won't. That I'm sure of.. no doubts.
But I lost her.
I hope you will be OK, both of you. And while you are in the process of accepting yourself, try to educate yourself a bit (and your partner if it is okey). I personally recommend https://zoo.wtf/ (right from the first episode... if you haven't heard it yet) and, of course, "Understanding Bestiality and Zoophilia" by Hani MiletskiI hope I become OK with myself and with her knowing... in time I think I will but I feel as if its going to be a long road of acceptance for myself.
Hot damn, what a roller coaster this post has been. I felt like i was reading a fanfic LOL. I AM HOPING THIS IS REAL!So I've been physically active in the past.. and for as long as I can remember zoo has been my goto viewing and thoughts.
as a lot of us know sometimes it makes you feel very very trapped and is why a lot of us come here.
Well I cracked.. I broke down.. I just couldn't do it anymore.. and well be stupid I told her. The look she gave me... to me it said it all... that's it its over...
I left the house soon after... scared to death and feeling even more alone than I did before.
I posted here and that's where I was at... in honesty I wanted to end myself
She called me.. asked me to come home. Now I did trust her with my life and I'd trust her with my secret so I went back....
The first thing she said to me was "I'll never judge you"
Still I couldn't see how she wouldn't...
She asked me questions.. she wanted details.. she told me I owed her that.. and she was right! I mean we built a life together over the top of something big!
It was hard... very hard to speak openly and truthfully about it to her... its not like on here.. she knows me! She is right here with me! However I did... I was as honest as one could be..
... and she accepted it... gobsmacked is not the word! She said it doesn't change how she sees me at all.. and then came.. "I watched a few clips after you left, and it honestly made me tingle..." ... I thought she was joking or I simply could not take it in... she admitted she had watched it a little in the past... first time before I met her and once or twice with curiosity since being together.
She said she never had any intentions or thoughts about doing it but at the same time it was so wrong it was very tantalising... so wrong it's right in a fucked up sense.
So here we are.. here I am... I still don't know where to put myself tbh with you all.. I'm just so uncomfortable in my skin atm.. I've driven a wedge in as protection I think.. distanced myself emotionally from her. I do feel ashamed. I'm still scared! It's all so very new... I've been locked away in myself for so long and now someone else is there... with me.. and I dont know how to feel.
So yes I am zoo and she knows it.. she is not zoo but gets kinked. And she still loves me for me... I've always known she is amazing hence I've been with her for 14 years... but she never ceases to amaze me.. what an incredible human being!
you'd think it would be easy now to just get on again right? But it doesn't work like that.. this is no fairy tale.
I hope I become OK with myself and with her knowing... in time I think I will but I feel as if its going to be a long road of acceptance for myself.
Yes very much realHot damn, what a roller coaster this post has been. I felt like i was reading a fanfic LOL. I AM HOPING THIS IS REAL!
I am going to assume this is real since youve been part of this community since 2022
All i can say is
Sometimes its worth taking the leap of faith when it comes to love. It can truly end in an explosion, but there are times like this where things aren't as bad as we may have perceived them to be. If you truly love someone, and i mean really have love with each other, you will work through any obstacle. Thats the best part about love. Yes, there are always huge risks and maybe you can find out you didnt realize how cold and heartless someone could be. But in your situation, you have spent a plethora of time together, im sure you know each other so well, and you have that love
Its great your partner took the time to think about it, and even explore it a bit. It shows that she is open to working through it and hey, maybe she would even give it a try just for YOU. You are her person, if the love is real between you both i know for a fact you will get through this
sure, it may be awkward for a month, but time heals and GOOD communication and honesty are crucial. You both will get through this, and im proud of you for taking the risk and not keeping the secret anymore.
Much love <3
Hmmm lot of fakes on here for sure... I ask people their story off the bat and its obvious who is real or not tbh.Thank you for sharing for all this. Was rooting for you as I read through the posts and unlike some posts this feels authentic.
Certainly isn't a phish at all. It's all very very genuine.Here's the part I have a hard time with...
If I were to go and tell someone as important to me as say... a wife of 14 years. Blatantly, that I'm into sex with animals.
Not even bring up the idea to gage a reaction first. Then find out it is a catastrophic failure.
My first action would not be to run straight to a group dedicated to the very same thing to tell... strangers about it.
Now. I am an emotionless sociopath that tends to look at things matter of factly. But in my eyes this seems like more of a phish for attention than the initial blurting out to a SO this sort of interest.