Post Cum Regret

[Kristy]

really doesn't sound like zoo is right for you. if you feel physically ill there is a reason for it

Very true. @anon08f7f you need, very badly, to step away from zoo. Zoo is not what's causing your problems, BUT sticking with zoo IS causing them to continue.
This is because there were too many other negative things tied in with zoo, in very bad ways, from VERY early in your life - I think earlier than you have the ability to remember.

I told you this before - find some other kind of porn that turns you on. I know that sounds like a throwaway-answer, but I don't give throwaway-answers. I am serious, because no professional will attempt to give you the help you need, even IF you found one with the ability.

 

[anon08f7f]

Very true. @anon08f7f you need, very badly, to step away from zoo. Zoo is not what's causing your problems, BUT sticking with zoo IS causing them to continue.
This is because there were too many other negative things tied in with zoo, in very bad ways, from VERY early in your life - I think earlier than you have the ability to remember.

I told you this before - find some other kind of porn that turns you on. I know that sounds like a throwaway-answer, but I don't give throwaway-answers. I am serious, because no professional will attempt to give you the help you need, even IF you found one with the ability.

I have yet I always end up going towards ferals and zoo anyway, no matter the outcome though which is the problem honestly, It doesnt matter porn. Ive seen practically anything possible to the human imagination. This is kinda the only other step available that serves my desires.

 

[justthatguy]

Hey I can relate. My other big kink is humiliation so the fact that I’m turned on by this stuff and don’t want to be just turns me on more and makes it hotter. Not an easy cycle to escape, huh? Hope you feel better

 

[Wstrngrts]

Its more that I can't help but think about having those relationships, really giving me intrusive, frankly disturbing thoughts I really don't want to think of that gives me so much trouble.

i dont want to have that relationship, or be known as one. i dont want to be that one guy nobody likes, like a reforming pedo- yeah sure hes reforming hes trying his best.....but hes a pedo sort of issue. People see that, and dismiss you as worthless, nothing, less than dirt, and usually- only good dead.

When I was very young, my older brother started having sex with me. I didn't know any better and frankly I really liked it. However, it took me two decades to accept that although I'm bisexual and a zoo, I don't always have to act on it. Your past may have shaped who you are, but it doesn't mean you have to let it determine your future choices. Learn to love yourself for who you are now - warts and all. Most people understand trauma. The challenge is not reliving it every day, but instead making choices that make you happy now - regardless of others opinions, or externally applied norms. Live your life for you first.