I knew I was different from the other boys since I was first starting grade school - I didn't have a dick like theirs and I had to sit when peeing; I was born with both. For some odd reason I felt that the only way I coukd truly be a friend with other males was by letting the other boys,and eventually older males, use me however they wanted. Nw I'm a slut and can't seem to become friends, let alone close friends,with another male unless I where myself out to them. If they aren't interested in using me I can't help but think they don't want to be friends or they feel pity for me or I disgust them.