WhyAlwaysMe
Tourist
I begin welling up again as I think back to this day, 5th June 2022. Just back off holiday with my partner and on the train I made a split second decision to stop at my local station rather than carry on to my place further up north in wales and come see my parents for a few days before I headed back to my uni place.
I don’t know what made me stop here but I like to think it was fate.
Our German shepherd was ill. He’d been sick for a while but he showed recovery then suddenly he deteriorated on the 4th. He made it through the day until the 5th when he began collapsing and couldn’t walk all day. He just lay panting hard. I lay with him all day holding his paw even when he went outside and was sick and collapsed I lay in the rain next to him comforting him.
Then inevitably at 21:15 he let out his last ever howl before his body gave in and he lay motionless and at peace. I lay on the floor crying into his head for another 2 hours before we scooped him up and wrapped him up in his bed with his toys to take him to the vets the next day.
It isn’t getting any easier. I still miss him so much and my life truly hasn’t been the same since. I’ve been so down and lost without him by my side. 13 years with him felt like a week. Go find your beach Maxwell. I’ll see you again someday I hope.
I don’t know what made me stop here but I like to think it was fate.
Our German shepherd was ill. He’d been sick for a while but he showed recovery then suddenly he deteriorated on the 4th. He made it through the day until the 5th when he began collapsing and couldn’t walk all day. He just lay panting hard. I lay with him all day holding his paw even when he went outside and was sick and collapsed I lay in the rain next to him comforting him.
Then inevitably at 21:15 he let out his last ever howl before his body gave in and he lay motionless and at peace. I lay on the floor crying into his head for another 2 hours before we scooped him up and wrapped him up in his bed with his toys to take him to the vets the next day.
It isn’t getting any easier. I still miss him so much and my life truly hasn’t been the same since. I’ve been so down and lost without him by my side. 13 years with him felt like a week. Go find your beach Maxwell. I’ll see you again someday I hope.