Moral Dilemmas...

PrivateG

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Man... I had an account on here a little bit back... Was starting to get so excited about possibly getting to know some people on here and such... But I kept feeling... I dunno. Really horrible?

Like beastiality is something that's held my attention for way too long now. I was like 10 watching animals mate on YouTube. I saw a horse fully erect out in a field like a year before and it just captivated me... I don't like this at all... I wish I didn't like this... But I love it... I've tasted dog cum, I've been knotted, I've had a bitch ride my finger so hard... And I've been out in a pasture close enough to touch and smell the cattle... Though I never had the chance for anything else...

I feel like I'm going crazy over it... I need it. Specifically equines... They're just so perfect. BOTH GENDERS! I just want to insert myself into they're beautiful winking holes while sucking down a load of spunk... But at the same time I just wanna be able to not think about any of this whatsoever...

I dunno.. I do hope I can find something to try so I might finally be able to put it to rest... But at the same time I worry it'll just drive it further into my heart.
 
Im in similar place as you my friend.

My first sex ever was with a horse, before that i started watching zoo porn, I found it on my cousins' laptop (he is a guy). Of course I didn't speak with him about it, and somehow I enjoyed girls being knotted. Quickly tho, I discovered "man fucks mare" phrase, which I loved, but I was having full regret after watching the beast and having sex with the mare for over a decade. It messed up my man-woman connection, and now after releasing my story onto this forum I feel like im going to slowly disappear from here, and leave this topic for good.
On one side I want to fuck a mare and i get horny af about thinking about it, on other hand I would prefer to get this rock hard with a woman. Im not a virgin, I had 4 human(ha!) sex partners, and the thought about the mare was my companion while having sex with them. Only with one woman, which so far, was the love of my life, i wasnt thinking about mares pussy.


I feel much better after I discovered this site, read about other people's stories, noticed nothing more but just horny fucks, but also people like me, wondering is it part of myself or just a taboo, that makes me horny but i would never do it.
I think it would be much easier for us if having sex with animals was seemed as a normal, and i guess we are having regrets only because of the fear of being judged, but now if it wasnt forbidden would I ever do it? I guess yes


I treat this forum as a kind of therapy, and I will try to help the others with the same issue. I guess we just need to discover and understand ourselves.

Are you really into it?
What would you do to achieve it?
Is it something you dream about, or you set your life for it?
How would you feel if you finally got it, would you go for more or leave it?
How you feel about it?
And the most important
Why you keep fantasing if you feel like you are being a prisoner of your own thoughts?


Adapt or change, choice is yours.
It's all about being free.
 
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Im in similar place as you my friend.

My first sex ever was with a horse, before that i started watching zoo porn, I found it on my cousins' laptop (he is a guy). Of course I didn't speak with him about it, and somehow I enjoyed girls being knotted. Quickly tho, I discovered "man fucks mare" phrase, which I loved, but I was having full regret after watching the beast and having sex with the mare for over a decade. It messed up my man-woman connection, and now after releasing my story onto this forum I feel like im going to slowly disappear from here, and leave this topic for good.
On one side I want to fuck a mare and i get horny af about thinking about it, on other hand I would prefer to get this rock hard with a woman. Im not a virgin, I had 4 human(ha!) sex partners, and the thought about the mare was my companion while having sex with them. Only with one woman, which so far, was the love of my life, i wasnt thinking about mares pussy.


I feel much better after I discovered this site, read about other people's stories, noticed nothing more but just horny fucks, but also people like me, wondering is it part of myself or just a taboo, that makes me horny but i would never do it.
I think it would be much easier for us if having sex with animals was seemed as a normal, and i guess we are having regrets only because of the fear of being judged, but now if it wasnt forbidden would I ever do it? I guess yes


I treat this forum as a kind of therapy, and I will try to help the others with the same issue. I guess we just need to discover and understand ourselves.

Are you really into it?
What would you do to achieve it?
Is it something you dream about, or you set your life for it?
How would you feel if you finally got it, would you go for more or leave it?
How you feel about it?
And the most important
Why you keep fantasing if you feel like you are being a prisoner of your own thoughts?


Adapt or change, choice is yours.
It's all about being free.
Damn. Ok I guess. Still gonna be constantly feeling fucked up over it, but I guess I'll just live with it and see where I go.

I've definitely had dreams... I've done stuff with dogs and loved it... I feel like I wouldn't go too far to go further, but I dunno. And I'm definitely at a point where I wanna go further just to see if id want to continue going further... It's scary, tantalizing, hot, and depressing...
 
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