I felt many different emotions after the first time I let one of our dogs, Pumpkin, lick me. Mostly shame, anxiety, and guilt. He didn’t change much at all. I couldn’t even look him in the eye.
As the days passed, curiosity and and excitement grew and I initiated another licking by our other dog, Blacky. Just as I was getting comfortable getting eaten, he tried to mount me and I panicked and pushed him away. I spent more days questioning myself and feeling ashamed. During that time Blacky was more “playful” and attentive, which I know now probably meant he wanted more.
When I finally let go and let Pumpkin have me after my third licking, things definitely changed between us. I thought how he cleaned me up afterwards was sweet and made me feel less ashamed. We even kissed a bit. I think that’s what really helped change my emotions and our relationship. We both grew comfortable having sex with each other, and became more like boyfriend and girlfriend… like a loving couple. I think we both felt lucky to have each other… in every way