Hi everyone, just wanted to introduce myself.
My name is Anna. I'm currently living in USA. My interests are fitness (I'm obsessed), food, nutrition, travel, fashion, art, makeup and skin care, and music.
How I became curious about dogs was through the quarantine. I never thought about dogs in a sexual way ever in my whole life. I was a pretty sexual active person leading up to the lockdown, which is right when my ex and I broke up. So the sex came to an end and with all the restrictions, dating wasn't an option.
After going crazy without sex for a while, I got extremely wound up and horny, and started noticing things, like my dog. He's a big, powerful, energetic, strong Rottweiler. I remember after the first month noticing how strong he really looked, and muscular, and how nice his coat was and found it... attractive almost?
I was especially pent up and horny one day and I remember I looked up from my phone and he was walking away, and like my eyes just landed right on his balls for some reason, and I remember thinking wow, those are big and swinging back and forth and it made me feel overwhelmed with heat between my legs and my nipples getting a little hard. I felt a bit guilty and ashamed for it.
Another day I came home from the park and he was humping his dog bed like he does sometimes and I noticed for the first time wow, his hips are incredibly powerful and fast when he thrusts. I caught a glimpse of red and knew it was his penis since I've seen the tip sticking out before but this was more out than usual and it caught my attention. Seeing all of that, and his balls swinging back and forth really fast like that again sent me into an overdrive of arousal and I felt guilty for it again. Now that it has been a few months these thoughts keep consuming me.
But then I couldn't stop thinking about it or having dreams about it. I typed into Google three times looking for accounts of women with the same thoughts before I was able to actually hit search. I read a few accounts and found my way here. I've been reading since I joined and even found one of the tutorials.
I want him, I know I do, but I have a fear or mental block to overcome. I'm a pretty girl, popular, and I feel I'd be humiliated if anyone ever knew this about me, so I have to keep it secret. I feel I can't even tell my best friend, I know I'd be judged even by her
I'm just trying to get over that fear and have the experience, I'm not trying to really show anyone if I do this, or meet, this is too new and scary to me.
I'd appreciate any advice love or support, I still feel a little bit wrong for having these thoughts, and I'm scared to actually try anything, even though these desires are so deep.