Cooper22z
Tourist
Such an overshare for a first post, sorry in advance. -- Main questions are at the bottom if you dont want to read the back story.
Looking for people willing to share as much knowledge as possible.
I was not sure where this post should be so it is in 2 places, I do not think that is breaking the rules, but i can remove if need be in one of the sections. General Discussion + Zoophilia and Bestiality Sexuality. Thanks.
Hi everyone, I am looking for people who are patient and willing to give their opinion's and CONSTRUCTIVE criticism, advice etc. I have been part of this website for a few months, but I've been into zoophilia since i was 16 years old.
I apologize for how lengthy this will be, but i cannot thank you enough for taking the time out of your day to read it,
A little back story: This is always something i hated about myself and i have beaten myself up due to the shame. I used to try to pray it away as a young kid, it was that bad. It has tortured me and i felt evil / wrong for feeling the way i did. People always told me i had "magic powers" because i was so good with any animal, even wild ones... i loved to connect with nature. BUT.. This made me feel even worse because i had attraction to certain animals and it made me feel disgusting.
Anyways, I am now 28. I have just come to terms with ACCEPTING this part of myself early 2023. I was sick and tired of hating myself for it and i needed to accept this is part of who i am. I would NEVER force any being against their will, and it is a normal thing to feel. Just like sexuality is a spectrum, i feel as if this is the same. I still feel shame with the matter, but i hate myself a whole lot less. I fully accepted that 1. I am a furry and 2. am a zoophile.
To get to then point of this post: I would like to have an intimate experience with my dog IF she was interested. BUT there is one thing that is holding me back... I have very bad OCD along with health anxiety, anxiety/panic disorder.
Now to give important details, again i apologize for the length of this but it is important to understand the background, and i ask you to have an open mind and not immediately tell me to fuck off or give up.
I used to not be able to even kiss someone. I would panic about getting stds, diseases, germs etc. I have been in therapy my whole life battling OCD and Anxiety since i was 6 years old. I could not even HUG certain people or i would have horrible health anxiety.
As time went on and i got older + therapy..i was able to hold hands, dance at parties (didn't want to be sweat on or other stupid thoughts that made no sense, just irregular ocd thoughts), cuddle, and have physical touch with people. (cuddling was a huge milestone).
The when i was 18 i had my first kiss, and i didn't panic. I was so in love that it didn't create a reason for me to obsess... so weird. But then more therapy and exposure therapy as well for other issues and i became comfortable with kissing. I have only kissed 7 people in my whole life span so far. I've had sex with 3 people. The first time i had sex i got tested 5 times because i kept obsessing i had an STD. I literally have made myself SICK from stressing. IT WAS BAD.
Then when i was 23, i progressed to the point where i was comfortable with sex as long as the person didn't do anything with someone for 3 full months and then got tested so i knew for sure there were NO risks. (I also would NOT have sex unless i was in a committed relationship).
At my current age i can do most normal people things. I still have bad anxiety and health anxiety. I still battle ocd. I do obsess over health related things often still, sometimes i get haunted by health thoughts for 1-2 weeks.. annnnddd... do i think i have cancer and that im dying like once a month??... yeah.... but it used to be so debilitating that i couldn't even live. So I've come SUCH a long way.
But as i get older i want to experience a dog so badly. I have lost so much of my adolescence due to my mental disorders and i would hate for it to take away EVEN more. But i never want to take a risk that would end my life early, so i dont take to make any life altering risks. I have grown up with dogs and have had beautiful bonds / connections with them but never took the romantic step.
So far in the last 2 years i have let my dog lick my pits, thighs, MOUTH (huge for me). I did freak out for the first 3 months and took a break. But then tried it again and became okay with it without freaking out. Articles on here have also helped me GREATLY. I have also worked with letting her sleep in the bed with me.. i just do a paw cleaner first. But i know her privates/paws etc are touching my sheets and BOY do i think about the germs yes. But do i obsess.. NO! which is so cool. It sounds dumb, but this is a huge win for me. sometimes.. just sometimes.. i dont clean her paws OOOOOOOOOOOO im bad... haha. AGAIN,. huge win for me.
TO finish this ESSAY. I dont want to let my disorders control me and prevent me from having an experience that ive dreamed of since i was 16. **Unless there is a huge risk that can end my life early... then ill gladly leave it as a dream. But i ask you to not just shut me down and say give up, keep it a dream JUST due to my disorders... I have overcome so much and come so far. I know i can with this too, AS long as its safe and i cant get something life long or that would end my life early. I understand there are ALWAYS RISKS.. But i would love to find some comfort in the basic things below
Having knowledge and hearing stories etc helps put my mind at ease. My goal is to hopefully do the licking aspect and i would forever be fine with that.
So,
1. Does anyone have any tips on how to ease into this with my disorders in mind. A way to expose myself little by little without panic..
2. **LICKING: IF my dog is up to date on all vaccinations, doesn't eat poop, and is healthy.. Could i get a disease from letting her lick my ass/penis. I want to let her lick me so badly, but i fear diseases. I read up on the article with brucellosis (terrified me) and other zoo diseases. Are there any illnesses that i can catch strictly from her *licking* these parts of my body. She has licked my open wounds (freaked me out BUT i have gotten through it) and i take it is pretty similar to that since its an open area on my body that goes internal.. but i may be wrong. She also licks me all over my face and in my mouth which ive learned to be comfortable with and ive been okay health wise. Licking is the main thing i would want to do with her.
3. Fingering: My dog often humps, she even gets wet from just normal belly petting and things like that. What's the best way to ease into this so i know she is FULLY comfortable?? ALSO: how risky is it for me illness / disease wise. I know the disease above could apply since its vaginal secretion but what are the odds? I dont want to do this and then freak out. I like to be aware of any and all risks. I don't think ill ever be able to have full sex due to my fears (even though it would be an amazing experience) but i am fine with the two above. I am happy to read ANY knowledge on sex as well though.
4. Are there any life long diseases you can get from the two things listed above 1 & 2?. i wont be fence hopping, with any other animals etc. Just my own healthy, well fed dog. I do take her for WALKS often but i don't let her sniff or eat random poop. She has 2 dog brothers that live here as well but i would just be with her.
5. Any stories, opinions, advice on all of this. Please try to be understanding of my situation. All my life people told me i couldn't do things that i do now. I even run 2 successful businesses that nobody thought i could do when i was younger. So don't give up on me.
Please do not hit me with judgment on a disorder that i cannot control. I still want to have enjoyable experiences.
If you can help me put my mind at ease with the points above and share knowledge.. it would mean the absolute world to me.
Thank you so so soooo very much to anyone who has read this far. I appreciate you taking the time out of your day to read this and reply. <3
Seriously, thank you.
P.S Now that i have finally had the courage to post this / face this head on, ill finally be active and start posting more on here <3333
Looking for people willing to share as much knowledge as possible.
I was not sure where this post should be so it is in 2 places, I do not think that is breaking the rules, but i can remove if need be in one of the sections. General Discussion + Zoophilia and Bestiality Sexuality. Thanks.
Hi everyone, I am looking for people who are patient and willing to give their opinion's and CONSTRUCTIVE criticism, advice etc. I have been part of this website for a few months, but I've been into zoophilia since i was 16 years old.
I apologize for how lengthy this will be, but i cannot thank you enough for taking the time out of your day to read it,
A little back story: This is always something i hated about myself and i have beaten myself up due to the shame. I used to try to pray it away as a young kid, it was that bad. It has tortured me and i felt evil / wrong for feeling the way i did. People always told me i had "magic powers" because i was so good with any animal, even wild ones... i loved to connect with nature. BUT.. This made me feel even worse because i had attraction to certain animals and it made me feel disgusting.
Anyways, I am now 28. I have just come to terms with ACCEPTING this part of myself early 2023. I was sick and tired of hating myself for it and i needed to accept this is part of who i am. I would NEVER force any being against their will, and it is a normal thing to feel. Just like sexuality is a spectrum, i feel as if this is the same. I still feel shame with the matter, but i hate myself a whole lot less. I fully accepted that 1. I am a furry and 2. am a zoophile.
To get to then point of this post: I would like to have an intimate experience with my dog IF she was interested. BUT there is one thing that is holding me back... I have very bad OCD along with health anxiety, anxiety/panic disorder.
Now to give important details, again i apologize for the length of this but it is important to understand the background, and i ask you to have an open mind and not immediately tell me to fuck off or give up.
I used to not be able to even kiss someone. I would panic about getting stds, diseases, germs etc. I have been in therapy my whole life battling OCD and Anxiety since i was 6 years old. I could not even HUG certain people or i would have horrible health anxiety.
As time went on and i got older + therapy..i was able to hold hands, dance at parties (didn't want to be sweat on or other stupid thoughts that made no sense, just irregular ocd thoughts), cuddle, and have physical touch with people. (cuddling was a huge milestone).
The when i was 18 i had my first kiss, and i didn't panic. I was so in love that it didn't create a reason for me to obsess... so weird. But then more therapy and exposure therapy as well for other issues and i became comfortable with kissing. I have only kissed 7 people in my whole life span so far. I've had sex with 3 people. The first time i had sex i got tested 5 times because i kept obsessing i had an STD. I literally have made myself SICK from stressing. IT WAS BAD.
Then when i was 23, i progressed to the point where i was comfortable with sex as long as the person didn't do anything with someone for 3 full months and then got tested so i knew for sure there were NO risks. (I also would NOT have sex unless i was in a committed relationship).
At my current age i can do most normal people things. I still have bad anxiety and health anxiety. I still battle ocd. I do obsess over health related things often still, sometimes i get haunted by health thoughts for 1-2 weeks.. annnnddd... do i think i have cancer and that im dying like once a month??... yeah.... but it used to be so debilitating that i couldn't even live. So I've come SUCH a long way.
But as i get older i want to experience a dog so badly. I have lost so much of my adolescence due to my mental disorders and i would hate for it to take away EVEN more. But i never want to take a risk that would end my life early, so i dont take to make any life altering risks. I have grown up with dogs and have had beautiful bonds / connections with them but never took the romantic step.
So far in the last 2 years i have let my dog lick my pits, thighs, MOUTH (huge for me). I did freak out for the first 3 months and took a break. But then tried it again and became okay with it without freaking out. Articles on here have also helped me GREATLY. I have also worked with letting her sleep in the bed with me.. i just do a paw cleaner first. But i know her privates/paws etc are touching my sheets and BOY do i think about the germs yes. But do i obsess.. NO! which is so cool. It sounds dumb, but this is a huge win for me. sometimes.. just sometimes.. i dont clean her paws OOOOOOOOOOOO im bad... haha. AGAIN,. huge win for me.
TO finish this ESSAY. I dont want to let my disorders control me and prevent me from having an experience that ive dreamed of since i was 16. **Unless there is a huge risk that can end my life early... then ill gladly leave it as a dream. But i ask you to not just shut me down and say give up, keep it a dream JUST due to my disorders... I have overcome so much and come so far. I know i can with this too, AS long as its safe and i cant get something life long or that would end my life early. I understand there are ALWAYS RISKS.. But i would love to find some comfort in the basic things below
Having knowledge and hearing stories etc helps put my mind at ease. My goal is to hopefully do the licking aspect and i would forever be fine with that.
So,
1. Does anyone have any tips on how to ease into this with my disorders in mind. A way to expose myself little by little without panic..
2. **LICKING: IF my dog is up to date on all vaccinations, doesn't eat poop, and is healthy.. Could i get a disease from letting her lick my ass/penis. I want to let her lick me so badly, but i fear diseases. I read up on the article with brucellosis (terrified me) and other zoo diseases. Are there any illnesses that i can catch strictly from her *licking* these parts of my body. She has licked my open wounds (freaked me out BUT i have gotten through it) and i take it is pretty similar to that since its an open area on my body that goes internal.. but i may be wrong. She also licks me all over my face and in my mouth which ive learned to be comfortable with and ive been okay health wise. Licking is the main thing i would want to do with her.
3. Fingering: My dog often humps, she even gets wet from just normal belly petting and things like that. What's the best way to ease into this so i know she is FULLY comfortable?? ALSO: how risky is it for me illness / disease wise. I know the disease above could apply since its vaginal secretion but what are the odds? I dont want to do this and then freak out. I like to be aware of any and all risks. I don't think ill ever be able to have full sex due to my fears (even though it would be an amazing experience) but i am fine with the two above. I am happy to read ANY knowledge on sex as well though.
4. Are there any life long diseases you can get from the two things listed above 1 & 2?. i wont be fence hopping, with any other animals etc. Just my own healthy, well fed dog. I do take her for WALKS often but i don't let her sniff or eat random poop. She has 2 dog brothers that live here as well but i would just be with her.
5. Any stories, opinions, advice on all of this. Please try to be understanding of my situation. All my life people told me i couldn't do things that i do now. I even run 2 successful businesses that nobody thought i could do when i was younger. So don't give up on me.
Please do not hit me with judgment on a disorder that i cannot control. I still want to have enjoyable experiences.
If you can help me put my mind at ease with the points above and share knowledge.. it would mean the absolute world to me.
Thank you so so soooo very much to anyone who has read this far. I appreciate you taking the time out of your day to read this and reply. <3
Seriously, thank you.
P.S Now that i have finally had the courage to post this / face this head on, ill finally be active and start posting more on here <3333
