Totally understand and appreciate exactly what you're saying. There are no words of solace, no comforting little sayings to offer. Just... nods of acknowledgment about your loss. I'm still trying to deal with the loss of my Lab in December. Too soon not to hurt this much. The only way through it, is through it, knowing that the depth of my pain (and yours) is verification of how much we feel the loss.This isn't a cry for help. I'm just not feeling being alive without my best puppy. I had to let my 9 year old pup go a few days ago. He had cancer and operating wasn't an option because of where it was. I held him as he left this world and I'm fucking dead inside because of it. I have his paw print in clay from the vet and it is killing me how silent my home is with him gone. I know I should feel better considering I did this to prevent his suffering and gave him piece by letting him go. I just don't know what to do now that he's gone. His toys lay around my home and his water dish is still clean and full for him. I open the drawer for something and I'm use to him running up to me for a treat because it's in the same drawer but he's not there. His toys still on the floor where he left them. How the fuck do you get over a loss like this? I can't get another pup with my work schedule. It will never be the same. What do I do? How do I feel better? Can anyone offer any help here?
I appreciate that. Everything is pretty numb at the moment. I'm happy someone knows the feeling as bitter sweet as it may be. Sadly alcohol is my only escape from the pain of being alone without him. He was always there when I did anything. He'd be asking for cookies or pets one way or another. Now he's gone. It's hard to do anything honestly. He's just always be there and all of a sudden he's gone. Just a paw print to fill the massive gap. I can't imagine it gets any easier.Totally understand and appreciate exactly what you're saying. There are no words of solace, no comforting little sayings to offer. Just... nods of acknowledgment about your loss. I'm still trying to deal with the loss of my Lab in December. Too soon not to hurt this much. The only way through it, is through it, knowing that the depth of my pain (and yours) is verification of how much we feel the loss.
So sorry. So sorry. Sending warmth your way, if you can feel it at all right now.