Struggling with self acceptance and Desires

[cookiesndream]

Hi guys, I’m a 23M and I’ve been lurking on here for a while but I’m kind of at a breaking point and needed to tell people what I’m going through I guess. This may be kind of a long post so I apologize in advance.

I always knew my sexuality was a little bit different from everyone else but when I was younger I assumed I would just get “normal” later. I do have attraction for human women but really not all that much, and I’ve never had a girlfriend or had sex before, but I always found myself super attracted to animal characters in movies and things like that and I had watched zoo porn in the past but I simply chalked it up to being some fetish.

However, a few months ago, one of my friends moved into a new apartment but couldn’t keep her dog, a female husky/shep mix, and I took her in cause I had space and I always liked her, but never anything sexual at the time. My girl is a little over 3, and my friend got her as a pup and she was never fixed. I love having her in life, she’s honestly the best thing that’s ever happened to me, but I think I’ve fallen IN love with her. We have this deep connection I feel, and she even sleeps in the same bed with me. Lately, I’ve found myself being really distracted by her “lady parts” and to be honest, I really fucking want her. When we cuddle in bed i get rock hard like I’ve never been before in my life. My breaking point came when last night, I’d forgotten to do the laundry and didn’t have any clean underwear, so I slept naked. That night I had a wet dream about her, and i woke up to a really pleasant sensation on my dick and I saw that she licked up all my cum and was licking my dick. I couldn’t take it anymore and caved and I fingered her and ate her pussy, which she really seemed to enjoy, but I didn’t go all the way. I feel really guilty about it now though, like I did something wrong and unnatural and like there’s something wrong with me and idk what to do about these feelings. I’m just struggling to accept that im actually zoo. I could really use some guidance from anyone who knows what I’m going through and advice on what I should do now. Any advice is appreciated.
Sorry for the long post, just had to let it all out.

 

[FloofyNewfie]

This is a topic that has been touched upon in the past several times. For a lot of people (but not all) the biggest challenge to overcome is our typical sapient programming. Most of us have been taught that sex with animals is a vile, dirty, and degusting thing. We've been taught that sex with animals is rape and that if you have sex with an animal you are degrading yourself as a human being. Society as a whole looks down upon those that wish to have an intimate relationship with our animal partner that also includes sex.

For a lot of people it's the expectation of being "normal" that causes us guilt. Most of us have a mom/dad/grandma/grandpa that expects us to bare children and get a normal human partner typically of the opposite sex, but especially of the same species. They expect us to continue the family line for generations to come. There is, of course, also a societal expectation of being "normal" as well. For some it's religious hang-ups. Religion often shapes us as a person, but most western religions look down having a relationship with an animal in a sexual manner. Often we are forced to hide the feelings we have towards animals to protect not only ourselves but also our animal partners as well. This only gives credence towards the feeling that we are doing something wrong by engaging with sexual activities with animals. Even if this form of love seems mutually reciprocated by said animal.

It's hard to say if we're shaped this way, or born this way. Me personally, I think it's often a combination of both, although I've known that I had sexual feelings towards animals since puberty. It's not something I chose to have. I used to feel guilt about my love and lust towards animals. For me personally losing my religion was the first step. Education about zoophilia and learning that it's not always rape and in fact, if done correctly, can be mutual pleasure for you and the animal was the second barrier I had to overcome, and actually getting intimate with an animal was the third barrier I had to overcome. Education was a key factor in this, but challenging my previous held beliefs that "sex with animals is always rape" was also just as crucial as well.

Don't be afraid to scour this forum for information. Most things you'll have questions about have already been touched upon in past threads. There are plenty of how-tos and guides in the how-tos section of the forum. There are also a ton of threads about self acceptance as well. For a sexual relationship/sexual education I would start here: https://www.zoovilleforum.net/threads/a-complete-guide-to-bitch-sex.460/ I would personally read this thread in it's entirety. But there are plenty of other threads.

 

[arachnid]

From my own experience, I never felt for a moment that there was anything wrong or unnatural about it - I'd been interested in beastiality for many years before the opportunity came along and when it did, it felt "natural" to me and while I have plenty of things to feel guilty about, fucking/making love/sexual intercourse/woopy with a dog is definitely not one of them.

Each of us is different, not just in how we view sex with animals (whether it be a lifestyle, a kink, or if you're zoo-exclusive and all the variations thereof) and how we feel about it all is going to be just as different. Given that sex with animals is, at least in the publics mind, "wrong" and "shameful" it's probably no surprise you feel guilty about it when most of our outside influences feel that way.

For now at least, what is done, is done so perhaps take a step back and try to look at your situation objectively. Did you feel like you forced her or made her do something she was not willing to do? Did she enjoy it, did you? Who has been harmed by what you did or what you might do if you take it further next time? If you were to do something sexual with her again, what might you do differently? What are the reasons you would have to not do anything again? There are no right or wrong answers, just things to think about.

At the end of the day, how you manage whatever guilt you feel there are basically two paths - either you decide to continue or you decide to stop. And either is fine - just as there are plenty of great people that do enjoy sex with animals, there are plenty that don't as well and there is nothing wrong with that. And you can always remain in the middle and enjoy the fantasies through places like Zooville without actually doing anything IRL.

 

[cookiesndream]

This is a topic that has been touched upon in the past several times. For a lot of people (but not all) the biggest challenge to overcome is our typical sapient programming. Most of us have been thought that sex with animals is a vile, dirty, and degusting thing. We've been taught that sex with animals is rape and that if you have sex with an animal you are degrading yourself as a human being. Society as a whole looks down upon those that wish to have an intimate relationship with our animal partner that also includes sex.

For a lot of people it's the expectation of being "normal" that causes us guilt. Most of us have a mom/dad/grandma/grandpa that expects us to bare children and get a normal human partner typically of the opposite sex, but especially of the same species. They expect us to continue the family line for generations to come. There is, of course, also a societal expectation of being "normal" as well. For some it's religious hang-ups. Religion often shapes us as a person, but most western religions look down having a relationship with an animal in a sexual manner. Often we are forced to hide the feelings we have towards animals to protect not only ourselves but also our animal partners as well. This only gives credence towards the feeling that we are doing something wrong by engaging with sexual activities with animals. Even if this form of love seems mutually reciprocated by said animal.

It's hard to say if we're shaped this way, or born this way. Me personally, I think it's often a combination of both, although I've known that I had sexual feelings towards animals since puberty. It's not something I chose to have. I used to feel guilt about my love and lust towards animals. For me personally losing my religion was the first step. Education about zoophilia and learning that it's not always rape and in fact, if done correctly, can be mutual pleasure for you and the animal was the second barrier I had to overcome, and actually getting intimate with an animal was the third barrier I had to overcome. Education was a key factor in this, but challenging my previous held beliefs that "sex with animals is always rape" was also just as crucial as well.

Don't be afraid to scour this forum for information. Most things you'll have questions about have already been touched upon in past threads. There are plenty of how-tos and guides in the how-tos section of the forum. There are also a ton of threads about self acceptance as well. For a sexual relationship/sexual education I would start here: https://www.zoovilleforum.net/threads/a-complete-guide-to-bitch-sex.460/ I would personally read this thread in it's entirety. But there are plenty of other threads.

Thank you so much for your reply. Reading it honestly made me feel a lot better. I literally just woke up in the middle of the night from another wet dream of my girl, but after reading your reply, much of the shame I previously felt has diminished, though not all. I love my girl to death, and deep down, I know that I’m going to make her mine and probably pretty soon because my attraction to her is just too strong. Just need to mentally prepare myself for when the time comes. Would it be alright if I asked you some questions in private? I’m actually quite familiar with you cause your stories are some of my favorites when I lurked on here before, and from your feedback it seems you understand what I’m going through.

 

[cookiesndream]

From my own experience, I never felt for a moment that there was anything wrong or unnatural about it - I'd been interested in beastiality for many years before the opportunity came along and when it did, it felt "natural" to me and while I have plenty of things to feel guilty about, fucking/making love/sexual intercourse/woopy with a dog is definitely not one of them.

Each of us is different, not just in how we view sex with animals (whether it be a lifestyle, a kink, or if you're zoo-exclusive and all the variations thereof) and how we feel about it all is going to be just as different. Given that sex with animals is, at least in the publics mind, "wrong" and "shameful" it's probably no surprise you feel guilty about it when most of our outside influences feel that way.

For now at least, what is done, is done so perhaps take a step back and try to look at your situation objectively. Did you feel like you forced her or made her do something she was not willing to do? Did she enjoy it, did you? Who has been harmed by what you did or what you might do if you take it further next time? If you were to do something sexual with her again, what might you do differently? What are the reasons you would have to not do anything again? There are no right or wrong answers, just things to think about.

At the end of the day, how you manage whatever guilt you feel there are basically two paths - either you decide to continue or you decide to stop. And either is fine - just as there are plenty of great people that do enjoy sex with animals, there are plenty that don't as well and there is nothing wrong with that. And you can always remain in the middle and enjoy the fantasies through places like Zooville without actually doing anything IRL.

Thank you for your reply. I definitely did not force her to do anything, and honestly it seemed like she enjoyed it and she has shown interest in my penis before. My fantasies are getting more and more vivid and now I’m constantly thinking about it and having wet dreams about it. I literally just woke up from a wet dream involving her a few minutes ago. I honestly really want to do it and while part of me understands that it really isn’t wrong if it’s mutual and consensual, another part has been conditioned to think this sort of thing is not normal I guess, and I’m trying to find a way to get past that.

 

[Perrito77]

Hi guys, I’m a 23M and I’ve been lurking on here for a while but I’m kind of at a breaking point and needed to tell people what I’m going through I guess. This may be kind of a long post so I apologize in advance.

I always knew my sexuality was a little bit different from everyone else but when I was younger I assumed I would just get “normal” later. I do have attraction for human women but really not all that much, and I’ve never had a girlfriend or had sex before, but I always found myself super attracted to animal characters in movies and things like that and I had watched zoo porn in the past but I simply chalked it up to being some fetish.

However, a few months ago, one of my friends moved into a new apartment but couldn’t keep her dog, a female husky/shep mix, and I took her in cause I had space and I always liked her, but never anything sexual at the time. My girl is a little over 3, and my friend got her as a pup and she was never fixed. I love having her in life, she’s honestly the best thing that’s ever happened to me, but I think I’ve fallen IN love with her. We have this deep connection I feel, and she even sleeps in the same bed with me. Lately, I’ve found myself being really distracted by her “lady parts” and to be honest, I really fucking want her. When we cuddle in bed i get rock hard like I’ve never been before in my life. My breaking point came when last night, I’d forgotten to do the laundry and didn’t have any clean underwear, so I slept naked. That night I had a wet dream about her, and i woke up to a really pleasant sensation on my dick and I saw that she licked up all my cum and was licking my dick. I couldn’t take it anymore and caved and I fingered her and ate her pussy, which she really seemed to enjoy, but I didn’t go all the way. I feel really guilty about it now though, like I did something wrong and unnatural and like there’s something wrong with me and idk what to do about these feelings. I’m just struggling to accept that im actually zoo. I could really use some guidance from anyone who knows what I’m going through and advice on what I should do now. Any advice is appreciated.
Sorry for the long post, just had to let it all out.

Western educación made us feeling Hurt when becoming this concept, other side of the world doesn’t, part of this is controlling not just economically but socially, romantic music have been played big role make it falls in love, needs a woman in our life, have a career, make kids, all the sudden it’s just illusion, religion is the worst creating Fears on us, History has been changed in schools
Life is not whatever they tell us, life is whatever you like.
?

 

[cookiesndream]

Western educación made us feeling Hurt when becoming this concept, other side of the world doesn’t, part of this is controlling not just economically but socially, romantic music have been played big role make it falls in love, needs a woman in our life, have a career, make kids, all the sudden it’s just illusion, religion is the worst creating Fears on us, History has been changed in schools
Life is not whatever they tell us, life is whatever you like.
?

I appreciate your reply man, but I’m a little confused as to what you mean. Could you elaborate a little more?

 

[Perrito77]

I appreciate your reply man, but I’m a little confused as to what you mean. Could you elaborate a little more?

Sorry for my Spanglish, I tried to elaborate my English language but had some broken words
I meant; everything depends of the location, in some countries there are more open on this area without preconceptions or society ,dogmas .
While other places think that it’s wrong
I don’t think so, I love Zoo
Most followed society and culture but nobody search beyond knowledge
Search and you will find

 

[cookiesndream]

Sorry for my Spanglish, I tried to elaborate my English language but had some broken words
I meant; everything depends of the location, in some countries there are more open on this area without preconceptions or society ,dogmas .
While other places think that it’s wrong
I don’t think so, I love Zoo
Most followed society and culture but nobody search beyond knowledge
Search and you will find

Ah I see, thanks for sharing your wisdom with me man haha.

 

[StillWanting]

I don't think its really possible to rape a big dog that has full control of their movements and mouth. She has big teeth, and 4 wheel drive. If she doesn't try to get away or bite your face off you know she's not in fight/flight mode. Watch her eyes, jowls and ears. You've had her for awhile and bonded with her. If ya'll havent at least started the weird jedi/vulcan mindmeld thing dogs do yet I'd be surprised. She knows when you are thinking about getting up and you know when she is signaling hungry/ potty/ play time etc. You are or are getting attuned to each other. She will tell you yes or no.

Only word of warning, she's going to die. Accept that now, you will outlive her by decades, and have many other lovers.