Hello,
New here on the forum, and time for and intro.
I am a man from Sweden and I am in my mid 30s.
My very first interaction with zoo was when I was very young and accidentally downloaded some videos with a now very old software, kazaa, A file sharing software used in the 90s. Which prompted me to find out what this was, and find more of it. (The very first specific video was a woman in a beach setting and later at home, with her German Sheppard).
Since then I've always been curious and interested. And throughout the years that interest and need have steadily been growing to a point of breaking. Sadly I have not had the chance to explore this need.
Sweden, being a very sexually open country one would think that would be the same with zoo. Sweden views zoo with extreme prejudice, and therefore I've kept this secret of mine close to heart and hidden behind so many layers that I even forgot this interest for a decade in my twenties..
In retrospect this might have been what lead me into fostering an interest in bdsm, bondage. As an outlet.
Now these are both a core of my being. Both being so wrong i the eyes of society, but making it feel so much more right for me.
Sometimes it feels like I have more toys than an average toyshop.
Fast forward to my early thirties.
I find a woman, who somewhat share my interests in bdsm.
We get married.
One fated night in the heat of the moment, my mind racing.
Out of nowhere I blurt out that I want to see her fucked by a dog.
Time stops, our bodies stop, she looks at me, and then proceeds to laugh.
This hurt me on many different levels.
Me hurting myself for letting a secret surface.
But also hurt from her laugh and her later reaction. Which of course was somewhat of disgust and an immediate "no".
I played this down(not wanting to show how scared and hurt I am), but we talk about it to an extent possible at that moment.
Much later in time she do really try to give it some thoughts. I try showing some videos. But sadly it doesn't seem to be, and she wants it turned off.
This subject have been talked about lightly from time to time. And she has come to the realization that she can't give me what I need, and have given permission to find an outlet for this interest, and to further my development in bdsm if those two can go hand in hand.
After many months of doing nothing, here I now am.
I don't know how to safely get into contact with people with the zoo aspect in mind, considering what I mentioned above. And it terrifying to even try. Not like there's a dating app or ease of access option like for every other "normal" person out there.
But I have to do this, now or never.
The intro stated a few things about zeta and that I would have to answer or talk about one of the key points.
I don't know how to do this since I don't live the lifestyle yet.
But what I can say is that I value pets/animals to a higher degree than humans, and I agree with a lot of what was said in the list.
Onto my hopes about reaching out and opening up.
I wish to find like-minded people
I wish to explore this interest that has a gaping hole in my heart.
I wish to expand my experiences in life before it's too late.
I hope this can be a proper first step.
Preferably I wish to find women or couples in Sweden that I could get to know. To show me how they live and experience, and to share their knowledge. I am mostly interested in women who gets dominated by male dogs. I've briefly entertained the idea about bitch dogs but haven't reached a conclusion.
But if need be, it seems that Germany is very active in the regard of zoo. I would have a hard time traveling, but I'll cross that bridge when I get there.
At this point, just to be able to chat virtually to like-minded people within Europe would be something that might bring a grown man to tears.
Do note. Out of fear. I will have no notifications or emails on.
Depending on my situation I might check in once a day or once every few months.
Thank you for having me. And I look forward to whatever might happen.
Yours sincerely - mango
New here on the forum, and time for and intro.
I am a man from Sweden and I am in my mid 30s.
My very first interaction with zoo was when I was very young and accidentally downloaded some videos with a now very old software, kazaa, A file sharing software used in the 90s. Which prompted me to find out what this was, and find more of it. (The very first specific video was a woman in a beach setting and later at home, with her German Sheppard).
Since then I've always been curious and interested. And throughout the years that interest and need have steadily been growing to a point of breaking. Sadly I have not had the chance to explore this need.
Sweden, being a very sexually open country one would think that would be the same with zoo. Sweden views zoo with extreme prejudice, and therefore I've kept this secret of mine close to heart and hidden behind so many layers that I even forgot this interest for a decade in my twenties..
In retrospect this might have been what lead me into fostering an interest in bdsm, bondage. As an outlet.
Now these are both a core of my being. Both being so wrong i the eyes of society, but making it feel so much more right for me.
Sometimes it feels like I have more toys than an average toyshop.
Fast forward to my early thirties.
I find a woman, who somewhat share my interests in bdsm.
We get married.
One fated night in the heat of the moment, my mind racing.
Out of nowhere I blurt out that I want to see her fucked by a dog.
Time stops, our bodies stop, she looks at me, and then proceeds to laugh.
This hurt me on many different levels.
Me hurting myself for letting a secret surface.
But also hurt from her laugh and her later reaction. Which of course was somewhat of disgust and an immediate "no".
I played this down(not wanting to show how scared and hurt I am), but we talk about it to an extent possible at that moment.
Much later in time she do really try to give it some thoughts. I try showing some videos. But sadly it doesn't seem to be, and she wants it turned off.
This subject have been talked about lightly from time to time. And she has come to the realization that she can't give me what I need, and have given permission to find an outlet for this interest, and to further my development in bdsm if those two can go hand in hand.
After many months of doing nothing, here I now am.
I don't know how to safely get into contact with people with the zoo aspect in mind, considering what I mentioned above. And it terrifying to even try. Not like there's a dating app or ease of access option like for every other "normal" person out there.
But I have to do this, now or never.
The intro stated a few things about zeta and that I would have to answer or talk about one of the key points.
I don't know how to do this since I don't live the lifestyle yet.
But what I can say is that I value pets/animals to a higher degree than humans, and I agree with a lot of what was said in the list.
Onto my hopes about reaching out and opening up.
I wish to find like-minded people
I wish to explore this interest that has a gaping hole in my heart.
I wish to expand my experiences in life before it's too late.
I hope this can be a proper first step.
Preferably I wish to find women or couples in Sweden that I could get to know. To show me how they live and experience, and to share their knowledge. I am mostly interested in women who gets dominated by male dogs. I've briefly entertained the idea about bitch dogs but haven't reached a conclusion.
But if need be, it seems that Germany is very active in the regard of zoo. I would have a hard time traveling, but I'll cross that bridge when I get there.
At this point, just to be able to chat virtually to like-minded people within Europe would be something that might bring a grown man to tears.
Do note. Out of fear. I will have no notifications or emails on.
Depending on my situation I might check in once a day or once every few months.
Thank you for having me. And I look forward to whatever might happen.
Yours sincerely - mango
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