Puhp
Esteemed Citizen of ZV
I recently read a profile post from a forum member who spoke about their need to remove themselves from this place, for some familiar sounding reasons:
I posted on their profile that I was sad to read this – that anyone feels this way – but also that it's understood. The journey can be a strange one, especially with social and legal pressures, but moreso the guilt and and feelings of fear and risk for an act (and thoughts, and feelings, and conversations) that needs to be REALLY safe in order for someone to pursue. Personally, I wrestled with my own zooish nature for a long time, doing a lot to deny and even purge these feelings and desires. It's been a long road, but I finally got to the point where I accepted that this is a part of my sexuality, a part of ME. It's a private part, and not something to share with anyone except the most special people (and, you know, all you other pervs here on The Interwebz). Kids, neighbors, family, co-workers... they all would be mortified if they knew. But still, there's always the draw... and the comfort of being in the company of other people who understand the same feelings and way of being.
I wrote to the poster that had been a while since they had posted this, but it was still worth commenting on because it's such a common part of the path that many of us find ourselves on. I wish them well on their journey (including the peace and safety that they deserve, whether they chose to pursue this or not).
How did you struggle with your zooishness? Did you ever try to rid yourself of these thoughts, desires, and actions?
I’m having second thoughts. I think I’m gonna disappear from zoo stuff again. It causes me wayyy too much anxiety and fear. I have kids I need to focus on keeping myself and them safe and this kinda stuff can be very risky. I’m sorry to get anyone’s hopes up to share convo or connection with me. I’m just too full of fear about the legal side. Take care all you lovely humans, thank you for validating my existence. ?
I posted on their profile that I was sad to read this – that anyone feels this way – but also that it's understood. The journey can be a strange one, especially with social and legal pressures, but moreso the guilt and and feelings of fear and risk for an act (and thoughts, and feelings, and conversations) that needs to be REALLY safe in order for someone to pursue. Personally, I wrestled with my own zooish nature for a long time, doing a lot to deny and even purge these feelings and desires. It's been a long road, but I finally got to the point where I accepted that this is a part of my sexuality, a part of ME. It's a private part, and not something to share with anyone except the most special people (and, you know, all you other pervs here on The Interwebz). Kids, neighbors, family, co-workers... they all would be mortified if they knew. But still, there's always the draw... and the comfort of being in the company of other people who understand the same feelings and way of being.
I wrote to the poster that had been a while since they had posted this, but it was still worth commenting on because it's such a common part of the path that many of us find ourselves on. I wish them well on their journey (including the peace and safety that they deserve, whether they chose to pursue this or not).
How did you struggle with your zooishness? Did you ever try to rid yourself of these thoughts, desires, and actions?