Knew I was sexually attracted to dogs at 14, suppressed it for 14 years by being a furry, facing it now trying to understand what's going on

[CorwynLux]

Hi everyone! My name is Corwyn and I'm glad to be here! Posted a small introduction and now I'm here in general. Hope this is the right spot.

I'm really fucking confused by my sexual attraction to dogs.

So I'm just going to say this to get it off my chest for the first time in my life because I've never been able to talk to anyone about this:

Oh my God I've loved animals my entire life in a really deep way and feel closer to them than humans. I feel safer with them, more able to connect, I understand their body language sensitively and respect them so dearly and with care. And I really want to be sexually intimate with a female dog.

I'll never forget the literal moment my zoophilic tendencies awakened. I was sitting in front the piano practicing piano. Hated it. Lessons sucked all the fun out of it. And in a sudden instant the thought crossed my mind "Is it possible to have sex with a dog?" Just spontaneously. Out of nowhere. I'd never had a thought like it in my life.

From that point forward I spent a while getting really into bestiality porn. Maybe not such a good thing as a 14 year old. Definitely not. But I loved it and I had always wanted a dog from a young age. Lightly touched a couple dogs genitalia but never did anything penetrative or involving my own genitals.

Anyway long story short something clicked in my head when I realized "oh man society REALLY LOOKS DOWN ON THIS" and I got really scared and totally repressed and sublimated my attraction to real dogs to Pokemon and furry cartoons instead. I think the dissociation helped me cope because I was too mentally young to really face the reality of what I was feeling at the time. I suppressed all these thoughts for 14 years as best as I could. I struggled with a ton of mental illness in my life, did a lot of therapy, self-improvement, psychedelics and fixed my shit up. I'm in the best mental shape I've ever been in my life and am in a really great place in life with friends, career, family, hobbies etc.

I'm going to need it because I want to face this zoophilia feeling directly now. No more hiding in the dark about it, I'm going to really look at this feeling and allow myself to feel it so I can understand it. I'm being compassionate with myself and kind as I navigate this and allowing myself to experiment with sexual fantasies and beast porn again at least for a time until I figure out what my long term take on this is gonna be. I'm feeling a little scared but also a little excited.

I'm willing to be totally open to new perspectives and ideas and to go along with whatever happens. Maybe after this period of exploration I'll decide "yup this is me" or "nope definitely not" - I have no idea what's going to happen but I'm going to try to be as open as possible.

I guess I'm just looking for people to help me expand my perspective. Provide information. Ask me questions to get me to explore my thoughts... I know that's a big ask but I've read that the community here is really nice and I have nowhere else to turn so... I'm really putting a lot of trust into you all.

Thank you all for reading this and I look forward to chatting with you all <3

 

[Estafantom]

Hey! I have a similar story as a furry artist and a pokemon fan myself :>

If you wanna chat feel free to send a DM once you reached 10 posts!

 

[CorwynLux]

Hey! I have a similar story as a furry artist and a pokemon fan myself :>

If you wanna chat feel free to send a DM once you reached 10 posts!

Oh my gosh hello!!!! I can't wait to chat with a bit more and get to know you! I'm starting to notice there are a significant number of furries on this forum. I actually got my start back on Beastforum waaaaay back when but I never really engaged with the community in any meaningful way. I was mostly just there for the porn honestly, but this time I really do wanna chat with people and figure out what's up with these feelings

Thanks for saying hello and I definitely will DM you <3

 

[Kombajnista]

I'm confused too, still trying to figure this out. Sometimes it's just too much. I see that some people will just delete their accounts or abandon forum altogether. Hope you'll find someone nice here but don't forget to be careful.

Now I don't often look at porn here, conversations are far more interesting and stimulating, although not in a sexual way.

Sadly, I don't live in the US so I can't meet furries and zoo's who live there.

 

[TheZipper]

Welcome, and thanks for your story.

 

[CorwynLux]

I'm confused too, still trying to figure this out. Sometimes it's just too much. I see that some people will just delete their accounts or abandon forum altogether. Hope you'll find someone nice here but don't forget to be careful.

Now I don't often look at porn here, conversations are far more interesting and stimulating, although not in a sexual way.

Sadly, I don't live in the US so I can't meet furries and zoo's who live there.

Hey thanks for checking in! Yeah I wouldn't be surprised if someday I just ghost the forum myself and delete everything. I've looked at some of the porn but honestly what I really want here is non-sexual conversation. I want to understand what's going on.

I've met a lot of furries but I don't believe many of them were zoophiles. Makes sense given that when I read the 2022 research article that they did using zooville members it seems that the construct of furryism is not necessarily associated with a heightened chance of also being a zoophile.

Welcome, and thanks for your story.

Thanks zipper! Would be curious to hear yours sometime if you'd ever wanna share either here or in DMs - your comfort level!

I think some species are just naturally sexually curious and humans are one.

I've always been extremely curious starting as a teen and now that I think of it, I don't think that when I originally realized that I had romantic and sexual feelings about animals that it really *clicked* for me that it was such a cultural taboo until someone pointed it out to me. That's probably why I suppressed my feelings for so long. I'm back to being curious about it now so I wonder where this all goes!!

 

[Kombajnista]

From my observations (I am no scientists though and not very active in the community ATM) max. 20% of furries are more or less open to zoo.

And I hope you won't delete your account. Ghosting is such a nasty habit. Anyway, feel free to write to me.

 

[justadude2]

Having a bit of the same thing going on as you though I suppose I didn't suppress it as much as I never realized it until now. Realizing I'm not just pansexual to gender but also species has been a doozy lol.

 

[CorwynLux]

From my observations (I am no scientists though and not very active in the community ATM) max. 20% of furries are more or less open to zoo.

And I hope you won't delete your account. Ghosting is such a nasty habit. Anyway, feel free to write to me.

In most contexts I'd agree. I'm guilty of having done it a few times in my life but in this situation... in the event I really do decide this is not the life for me or I'm not wired this way or whatever, I do want to clean things up and move on. I think I'm going to try to avoid it here if I can by just not sharing anything incriminating at all because maybe some of the discussion generated might be helpful to others.

I am pretty sure that at least two of the furries I met. No wait three of the furries I might have been. Okay no wait four. Probably four.

Yikes when I really think about it I realize that the number just keeps climbing. I'm sure we do have some data on that.... which apparently we do after reading around!

This study was done in 2007. You're amazing close to 17.1% man wow

Having a bit of the same thing going on as you though I suppose I didn't suppress it as much as I never realized it until now. Realizing I'm not just pansexual to gender but also species has been a doozy lol.

Yeah figuring out my sexuality was already confusing as heck without adding animals into the mix. I find I'm really only interested in dogs though, no other animals really catch my interest. I wonder if there's anything to be said about the types of animals people are into?

I could probably figure some of this stuff out with more Googling and searching the whole forum, but figuring it out like this is more fun

 

[justadude2]

Yeah figuring out my sexuality was already confusing as heck without adding animals into the mix. I find I'm really only interested in dogs though, no other animals really catch my interest. I wonder if there's anything to be said about the types of animals people are into?

I could probably figure some of this stuff out with more Googling and searching the whole forum, but figuring it out like this is more fun

Just asking out of curiosity (and possibly getting to know someone like myself) does your attraction extend to people? Mine definitely does, and it's all roughly equal, love is love and sex is sex to me if that makes sense.

 

[CorwynLux]

Just asking out of curiosity (and possibly getting to know someone like myself) does your attraction extend to people? Mine definitely does, and it's all roughly equal, love is love and sex is sex to me if that makes sense.

It does extend yes, and yeah I think I get what you're saying.

I'm attracted to both humans and dogs right now. Do you remember the moment you realized you were like... panspecies. I just made that word up I think lol.

 

[Monkeyy173]

Hi everyone! My name is Corwyn and I'm glad to be here! Posted a small introduction and now I'm here in general. Hope this is the right spot.

I'm really fucking confused by my sexual attraction to dogs.

So I'm just going to say this to get it off my chest for the first time in my life because I've never been able to talk to anyone about this:

Oh my God I've loved animals my entire life in a really deep way and feel closer to them than humans. I feel safer with them, more able to connect, I understand their body language sensitively and respect them so dearly and with care. And I really want to be sexually intimate with a female dog.

I'll never forget the literal moment my zoophilic tendencies awakened. I was sitting in front the piano practicing piano. Hated it. Lessons sucked all the fun out of it. And in a sudden instant the thought crossed my mind "Is it possible to have sex with a dog?" Just spontaneously. Out of nowhere. I'd never had a thought like it in my life.

From that point forward I spent a while getting really into bestiality porn. Maybe not such a good thing as a 14 year old. Definitely not. But I loved it and I had always wanted a dog from a young age. Lightly touched a couple dogs genitalia but never did anything penetrative or involving my own genitals.

Anyway long story short something clicked in my head when I realized "oh man society REALLY LOOKS DOWN ON THIS" and I got really scared and totally repressed and sublimated my attraction to real dogs to Pokemon and furry cartoons instead. I think the dissociation helped me cope because I was too mentally young to really face the reality of what I was feeling at the time. I suppressed all these thoughts for 14 years as best as I could. I struggled with a ton of mental illness in my life, did a lot of therapy, self-improvement, psychedelics and fixed my shit up. I'm in the best mental shape I've ever been in my life and am in a really great place in life with friends, career, family, hobbies etc.

I'm going to need it because I want to face this zoophilia feeling directly now. No more hiding in the dark about it, I'm going to really look at this feeling and allow myself to feel it so I can understand it. I'm being compassionate with myself and kind as I navigate this and allowing myself to experiment with sexual fantasies and beast porn again at least for a time until I figure out what my long term take on this is gonna be. I'm feeling a little scared but also a little excited.

I'm willing to be totally open to new perspectives and ideas and to go along with whatever happens. Maybe after this period of exploration I'll decide "yup this is me" or "nope definitely not" - I have no idea what's going to happen but I'm going to try to be as open as possible.

I guess I'm just looking for people to help me expand my perspective. Provide information. Ask me questions to get me to explore my thoughts... I know that's a big ask but I've read that the community here is really nice and I have nowhere else to turn so... I'm really putting a lot of trust into you all.

Thank you all for reading this and I look forward to chatting with you all <3

Love your story!

 

[justadude2]

It does extend yes, and yeah I think I get what you're saying.

I'm attracted to both humans and dogs right now. Do you remember the moment you realized you were like... panspecies. I just made that word up I think lol.

Just about half a year ago it really hit me I think? It's hard to describe because I'm also going through a really confusing time at the moment, (idk how much I like animals vs people) I've shown little signs throughout my life that I might be zoosexual, I've always treated them and actively thought of animals as the same as people on a fundamental level even before anything sexual came into it. I experimented on and off a few times looking at straight-up beastiality stuff but I for one reason or another gravitated away from it (I can't really remember what age) but I never hated it or liked it more than the standard gay stuff I was looking at lol, afterwards I started dating dudes and never really did/thought about it again, I eventually gravitated towards werewolves (mostly humanoid ones) and it just sort of stayed that way for 5+ years as a sort of combination of both of my attractions, I became a part of the furry community to top it all off. So to answer your question I don't think I had an exact moment of thinking "oh man I wanna have sex with animals" It was just sort of a way my sexuality grew on top of my gayness and I just sort of accepted it.

 

[Oldman]

In most contexts I'd agree. I'm guilty of having done it a few times in my life but in this situation... in the event I really do decide this is not the life for me or I'm not wired this way or whatever, I do want to clean things up and move on. I think I'm going to try to avoid it here if I can by just not sharing anything incriminating at all because maybe some of the discussion generated might be helpful to others.

I am pretty sure that at least two of the furries I met. No wait three of the furries I might have been. Okay no wait four. Probably four.

Yikes when I really think about it I realize that the number just keeps climbing. I'm sure we do have some data on that.... which apparently we do after reading around!
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This study was done in 2007. You're amazing close to 17.1% man wow

Yeah figuring out my sexuality was already confusing as heck without adding animals into the mix. I find I'm really only interested in dogs though, no other animals really catch my interest. I wonder if there's anything to be said about the types of animals people are into?

I could probably figure some of this stuff out with more Googling and searching the whole forum, but figuring it out like this is more fun

That study is absolute horseshit. I guarantee 80% of those that deny their attraction to zoo is absolutely lying according to a famous, undeniable and irrefutable study I just made up.

Seriously, take a second to think about it. How much of that porn includes anatomically correct horse, dog, lion ect penus (peni, penises, whatever) and vaginas. The only porn i can safely say is 50% not zooey, is the craptacular ones that have human peens.

I myself started liking the real thing, then i found furry porn art and added that to my likes. Never really been into the whole fursona and fursuit thing (except fursuit with animals ) but the art does tickle me. Oh!!! And stories too. I loved the stories on yiffstar when they where still a website.

Oh, and welcome to the forum! Enjoy your stay and be sure to check out the rules and the how to sections. It's always good to have knowledge.

 

[TibiEsto]

Hi everyone! My name is Corwyn and I'm glad to be here! Posted a small introduction and now I'm here in general. Hope this is the right spot.

I'm really fucking confused by my sexual attraction to dogs.

So I'm just going to say this to get it off my chest for the first time in my life because I've never been able to talk to anyone about this:

Oh my God I've loved animals my entire life in a really deep way and feel closer to them than humans. I feel safer with them, more able to connect, I understand their body language sensitively and respect them so dearly and with care. And I really want to be sexually intimate with a female dog.

I'll never forget the literal moment my zoophilic tendencies awakened. I was sitting in front the piano practicing piano. Hated it. Lessons sucked all the fun out of it. And in a sudden instant the thought crossed my mind "Is it possible to have sex with a dog?" Just spontaneously. Out of nowhere. I'd never had a thought like it in my life.

From that point forward I spent a while getting really into bestiality porn. Maybe not such a good thing as a 14 year old. Definitely not. But I loved it and I had always wanted a dog from a young age. Lightly touched a couple dogs genitalia but never did anything penetrative or involving my own genitals.

Anyway long story short something clicked in my head when I realized "oh man society REALLY LOOKS DOWN ON THIS" and I got really scared and totally repressed and sublimated my attraction to real dogs to Pokemon and furry cartoons instead. I think the dissociation helped me cope because I was too mentally young to really face the reality of what I was feeling at the time. I suppressed all these thoughts for 14 years as best as I could. I struggled with a ton of mental illness in my life, did a lot of therapy, self-improvement, psychedelics and fixed my shit up. I'm in the best mental shape I've ever been in my life and am in a really great place in life with friends, career, family, hobbies etc.

I'm going to need it because I want to face this zoophilia feeling directly now. No more hiding in the dark about it, I'm going to really look at this feeling and allow myself to feel it so I can understand it. I'm being compassionate with myself and kind as I navigate this and allowing myself to experiment with sexual fantasies and beast porn again at least for a time until I figure out what my long term take on this is gonna be. I'm feeling a little scared but also a little excited.

I'm willing to be totally open to new perspectives and ideas and to go along with whatever happens. Maybe after this period of exploration I'll decide "yup this is me" or "nope definitely not" - I have no idea what's going to happen but I'm going to try to be as open as possible.

I guess I'm just looking for people to help me expand my perspective. Provide information. Ask me questions to get me to explore my thoughts... I know that's a big ask but I've read that the community here is really nice and I have nowhere else to turn so... I'm really putting a lot of trust into you all.

Thank you all for reading this and I look forward to chatting with you all <3

Your realization experience is so similar to mine lol. I'm glad you're acknowledging your feelings, repressing them does absolutely no good.

 

[CorwynLux]

Just about half a year ago it really hit me I think? It's hard to describe because I'm also going through a really confusing time at the moment, (idk how much I like animals vs people) I've shown little signs throughout my life that I might be zoosexual, I've always treated them and actively thought of animals as the same as people on a fundamental level even before anything sexual came into it. I experimented on and off a few times looking at straight-up beastiality stuff but I for one reason or another gravitated away from it (I can't really remember what age) but I never hated it or liked it more than the standard gay stuff I was looking at lol, afterwards I started dating dudes and never really did/thought about it again, I eventually gravitated towards werewolves (mostly humanoid ones) and it just sort of stayed that way for 5+ years as a sort of combination of both of my attractions, I became a part of the furry community to top it all off. So to answer your question I don't think I had an exact moment of thinking "oh man I wanna have sex with animals" It was just sort of a way my sexuality grew on top of my gayness and I just sort of accepted it.

Wow thanks for sharing. Yeah I grappled with my sexuality for a while and identified as primarily gay for most of high school and college. I do not anymore.

Man you're making me realize I was grappling with all the taboo stuff. Being gay was already difficult enough in a Christian household and location I lived so I had to suppress that entirely. Then suppressing the furry identity out of fear of being ostracized by friends at school. Almost was for it. Totally suppressed zoo stuff.

That study is absolute horseshit. I guarantee 80% of those that deny their attraction to zoo is absolutely lying according to a famous, undeniable and irrefutable study I just made up.

Seriously, take a second to think about it. How much of that porn includes anatomically correct horse, dog, lion ect penus (peni, penises, whatever) and vaginas. The only porn i can safely say is 50% not zooey, is the craptacular ones that have human peens.

I myself started liking the real thing, then i found furry porn art and added that to my likes. Never really been into the whole fursona and fursuit thing (except fursuit with animals ) but the art does tickle me. Oh!!! And stories too. I loved the stories on yiffstar when they where still a website.

Oh, and welcome to the forum! Enjoy your stay and be sure to check out the rules and the how to sections. It's always good to have knowledge.

Oh is that so! Send me this famous, undeniable and irrefutable study you just made up so that I too can educate the masses

There is a pretty ginormous amount of porn that involves anatomically correct stuff. I tended to shy away from that stuff for the most part. Female canine anatomy in particular was still too triggering and I just totally shut down. For some reason I was always more okay with knots though, strangely enough. Liked them quite a bit actually back then haha.

Oh wow Yiffstar? That's the site that SoFurry turned into right? I spent a ton of time on SoFurry way back when. I wrote a good amount of pokemon erotica ahaha!!!

Thanks so much for the welcome!