I suddenly feel like an outsider

[fancy_zebra69]

I've recently discovered I'm a zoophile, and it's caused a lot of instability in my life.
I'm a 29 year old male, student doctor, and I've done a bunch of stuff in my life before medicine that has been successful and lucrative. I've been lucky to love and be loved by a few wonderful women, and I currently in a poly-amorous relationship with two colleagues.
I know society takes a dim view on zoophilia and naturally it's not even on the radar of the average person, and this includes my two partners. I love them very very much, and they love me, but I suddenly feel a real struggle to relate to them.
I am a pansexual and a pagan, and to me lovemaking is a very natural and beautiful thing. I think this extends to expressing love to animal companions. There's something extremely natural in two (or more) individuals enjoying each other's bodies, regardless of their sex, race or species... as long as it's consensual, of course. It seems like a no brainer... to take pleasure and love where it is offered, and to give freely of yourself. However even broaching the subject with my partners is met with significant push-back and I can't honestly see that being overcome.
I am doubly frustrated because the issue I'm facing isn't so much that I want to actively and urgently go around having sex with animals (as I'm sure they would think), nor is it in any way a paraphilia in the sense that I wouldn't be able to get sexual gratification without the element of zoophilia being present. In fact, I have been a female-dog owner in the past, and it didn't even occur to me to have sex with her - the thought never even crossed my mind. She was taken from me very early, unfortunately, but I don't regret not pursuing anything in that regard at all.
What I want is simply a state of being that is natural and in line with my personal philosophy and to share such a life with someone likeminded. In essence, I just want to be with someone who in terms of sex and love creates no distinction between the creatures of the Earth and who would love indiscriminately. Someone who would gladly take her lover and her pet inside of her, seeing them as equal. Someone who would be with me in love and acceptance if I did the same, all bourne from the understanding that love is between all things and sex is simply a physical expression of this powerful metaphysical force.
I hear stories and read them here of people finding out their female partner is fucking her dog or is into that kind of thing... and I wonder to myself where on Earth these people are. I would be so glad to meet someone like that myself, but I find I am the only person like me in my life... and the closest thing I have to a soul connection with someone is sitting here, calling into the void of the internet.

 

[Pillar]

I've recently discovered I'm a zoophile, and it's caused a lot of instability in my life.
I'm a 29 year old male, student doctor, and I've done a bunch of stuff in my life before medicine that has been successful and lucrative. I've been lucky to love and be loved by a few wonderful women, and I currently in a poly-amorous relationship with two colleagues.
I know society takes a dim view on zoophilia and naturally it's not even on the radar of the average person, and this includes my two partners. I love them very very much, and they love me, but I suddenly feel a real struggle to relate to them.
I am a pansexual and a pagan, and to me lovemaking is a very natural and beautiful thing. I think this extends to expressing love to animal companions. There's something extremely natural in two (or more) individuals enjoying each other's bodies, regardless of their sex, race or species... as long as it's consensual, of course. It seems like a no brainer... to take pleasure and love where it is offered, and to give freely of yourself. However even broaching the subject with my partners is met with significant push-back and I can't honestly see that being overcome.
I am doubly frustrated because the issue I'm facing isn't so much that I want to actively and urgently go around having sex with animals (as I'm sure they would think), nor is it in any way a paraphilia in the sense that I wouldn't be able to get sexual gratification without the element of zoophilia being present. In fact, I have been a female-dog owner in the past, and it didn't even occur to me to have sex with her - the thought never even crossed my mind. She was taken from me very early, unfortunately, but I don't regret not pursuing anything in that regard at all.
What I want is simply a state of being that is natural and in line with my personal philosophy and to share such a life with someone likeminded. In essence, I just want to be with someone who in terms of sex and love creates no distinction between the creatures of the Earth and who would love indiscriminately. Someone who would gladly take her lover and her pet inside of her, seeing them as equal. Someone who would be with me in love and acceptance if I did the same, all bourne from the understanding that love is between all things and sex is simply a physical expression of this powerful metaphysical force.
I hear stories and read them here of people finding out their female partner is fucking her dog or is into that kind of thing... and I wonder to myself where on Earth these people are. I would be so glad to meet someone like that myself, but I find I am the only person like me in my life... and the closest thing I have to a soul connection with someone is sitting here, calling into the void of the internet.

Can you give a tl,dr?

 

[Blkcoco]

I hear you and everything you mentioned is exactly the same as would I say. I think that maybe people do have this kind of interest and fear to express themselves or to experiment

 

[fancy_zebra69]

I hear you and everything you mentioned is exactly the same as would I say. I think that maybe people do have this kind of interest and fear to express themselves or to experiment

I think so. Even for me it was a long time before those very hidden doors in myself opened.
Have you found someone as such yet?

 

[OttoFritz44]

I can relate to this, even after starting to feel actual love and sexual attraction to animals, only last year I finally began recognizing myself as a zoo and even now I still have troubles with it. I even had a mental breakdown over it which ended with me just detaching from all I did here on the forum and elsewhere and getting rid of it all, only to realize it's not going away and returning from scratch. It's rough but I hope you can get better, that your life gets better and you find the opportunity to truly express or be as you are.

 

[fancy_zebra69]

I can relate to this, even after starting to feel actual love and sexual attraction to animals, only last year I finally began recognizing myself as a zoo and even now I still have troubles with it. I even had a mental breakdown over it which ended with me just detaching from all I did here on the forum and elsewhere and getting rid of it all, only to realize it's not going away and returning from scratch. It's rough but I hope you can get better, that your life gets better and you find the opportunity to truly express or be as you are.

Thank you very much for sharing this. It can be a complete mindfuck to realize you are so far out line with societal norms and have to adjust those narratives about yourself accordingly... can drive a man completely insane. By this time I'm already very comfortable with it though. It just takes a while to get to know yourself I think, and radically accepting everything you are, even the darkest bits, is both one of the hardest and most liberating things in the world.

 

[Kristy]

I've recently discovered I'm a zoophile, and it's caused a lot of instability in my life.
I'm a 29 year old male, student doctor, and I've done a bunch of stuff in my life before medicine that has been successful and lucrative. I've been lucky to love and be loved by a few wonderful women, and I currently in a poly-amorous relationship with two colleagues.
I know society takes a dim view on zoophilia and naturally it's not even on the radar of the average person, and this includes my two partners. I love them very very much, and they love me, but I suddenly feel a real struggle to relate to them.
I am a pansexual and a pagan, and to me lovemaking is a very natural and beautiful thing. I think this extends to expressing love to animal companions. There's something extremely natural in two (or more) individuals enjoying each other's bodies, regardless of their sex, race or species... as long as it's consensual, of course. It seems like a no brainer... to take pleasure and love where it is offered, and to give freely of yourself. However even broaching the subject with my partners is met with significant push-back and I can't honestly see that being overcome.
I am doubly frustrated because the issue I'm facing isn't so much that I want to actively and urgently go around having sex with animals (as I'm sure they would think), nor is it in any way a paraphilia in the sense that I wouldn't be able to get sexual gratification without the element of zoophilia being present. In fact, I have been a female-dog owner in the past, and it didn't even occur to me to have sex with her - the thought never even crossed my mind. She was taken from me very early, unfortunately, but I don't regret not pursuing anything in that regard at all.
What I want is simply a state of being that is natural and in line with my personal philosophy and to share such a life with someone likeminded. In essence, I just want to be with someone who in terms of sex and love creates no distinction between the creatures of the Earth and who would love indiscriminately. Someone who would gladly take her lover and her pet inside of her, seeing them as equal. Someone who would be with me in love and acceptance if I did the same, all bourne from the understanding that love is between all things and sex is simply a physical expression of this powerful metaphysical force.
I hear stories and read them here of people finding out their female partner is fucking her dog or is into that kind of thing... and I wonder to myself where on Earth these people are. I would be so glad to meet someone like that myself, but I find I am the only person like me in my life... and the closest thing I have to a soul connection with someone is sitting here, calling into the void of the internet.

Before you attribute any weight to a story you read on the site, ascertain first, if possible, whether it's a true story or fantasy.
That's not always easy; anyone who posts a story should state whether it's fantasy or fiction. Too many do not.

 

[JazzyPaws]

95% of the time it's just that. Just a story. Don't believe all the nonsense you read on this site. It's mostly kinksters and fetishists looking for their next jerk-off material.

Honestly, Rex is right. There are definitely fewer active zoos than lurkers and fappers. There is also a lot of fear that keeps zoos in the closet, especially if they are active.

 

[DoggoL0v3r]

You're definitely not alone its just safer and easier to talk to like-minded people over the internet rather than actually meeting them (and sadly some people fake it too), and as others said above dont take every story as reality, some are merely fantasy

Before you attribute any weight to a story you read on the site, ascertain first, if possible, whether it's a true story or fantasy.
That's not always easy; anyone who posts a story should state whether it's fantasy or fiction. Too many do not.

i believe the reason not everyone does it is to either try to make it more appealing to some by letting the assume whether its real or not(and assume based on which they'd prefer) and/or for their own safety (though i guess they could also just say its fantasy and that they dont condone such actions and stuff irl but ya know, everyone thinks differently so you never know)