Help me understand my sexual orientation ?

[someonelse]

Hey,
35yo gay male here.
My primary sexual attraction is towards masculine men in very standard sex settings. I'm a dominant top when it comes to anal, I also like body fluids, spit, sweat, piss, semen. I'm attracted a lot to the naturality and animality of men (when they allow themselves expressing it), body hair, beard, rugged look, body odor, animalistic sexual drive and general habits that are animal like/natural, like shitting in the bushes or burping with no shame.

My main fantasy is to allow myself to be submissive with men and be bottom with them, and be a tool for their satisfaction in any field, I tried it but I'm not so good in being submissive, it's something I'm still working on, currently it's still a fantasy.

Since I remember myself (16yo or so) I could get off from beastiality porn, where the most stimulating sub genre is men that get bred by dogs/horses, especially if the animal initiate it. You would think, ok, you have sexual orientation that includes beastiality, but wait, there are some facts that make it more complicated.

* I love animals, plants and anything natural, also pets, and I even own a cat. But I never had a dream or urge of adopting a dog which seems to me like too much attention consuming and as a bigger responsibility compare to a cat, I also less of a fan of their owner pleasing character.

* I don't have sexual thoughs when im near dogs or animals in general.

* I find that I can get horny from many kinds of paraphilias porn, all categories I enjoy usually have submission, sex that can be interpreted as sexual abuse, roughness and animalistic urges that has morality issues. For example, sex between inmates when the bottom is a submissive sex toy of theratrning looking thugs, "rape" like porn, sex between boss and employee, dad and son etc..
Nevertheless I'm not attracted at all to straight forward violence, it's a big turn off for me, even if it's only in acting in porn.

*I guess I can see myself trying to fuck a bitch, it seems very nice, warm and fluffy, but that's not what I'm mainly turned on by, and I don't think I could hold that as a satisfying sexual interest for long in real life. Maybe if I'll be able to connect to it psychologically as an act driven from differences in positions of power.

* I do have emotional intimacy with my cat, we always cuddling, sleeping together, I love her as my daughter, and we have deep emotional bonding. But i cant imagine how can I love a pet as a lover. If any, in a situation i would have a male dog that would use me for his sexual needs, if Im trying to imagine how I could percept it, I would feel its more like a father that helps his son with his sexual urges that drive him crazy, out of fatherly love and care, knowing he have nowhere else to release it and it can drive him crazy and miserable not being able to fuck... (And of course this thought turns me on extremely)

* One time during a hookup with some guy, we got very open with each other, and I told him that fucking with dogs turns me on, and he felt comfortable to share he having sex with his dog and accepted to demonstrate it infront of me. It was very stimulating, but less sexy as I thought it would, but there is a chance that the setting wasn't arousing enough for me. It was small short catered old dog, with very small dick and no cum, it lacked this powerful animalistic energy I was attracted to, so maybe that was the reason...

Mmm I guess that's it for now, maybe I'll have more to say through the conversation. Help me understand, do I have a sexual orientation towards animals or it is something else?

 

[equinelover4life]

Hey,
35yo gay male here.
My primary sexual attraction is towards masculine men in very standard sex settings. I'm a dominant top when it comes to anal, I also like body fluids, spit, sweat, piss, semen. I'm attracted a lot to the naturality and animality of men (when they allow themselves expressing it), body hair, beard, rugged look, body odor, animalistic sexual drive and general habits that are animal like/natural, like shitting in the bushes or burping with no shame.

My main fantasy is to allow myself to be submissive with men and be bottom with them, and be a tool for their satisfaction in any field, I tried it but I'm not so good in being submissive, it's something I'm still working on, currently it's still a fantasy.

Since I remember myself (16yo or so) I could get off from beastiality porn, where the most stimulating sub genre is men that get bred by dogs/horses, especially if the animal initiate it. You would think, ok, you have sexual orientation that includes beastiality, but wait, there are some facts that make it more complicated.

* I love animals, plants and anything natural, also pets, and I even own a cat. But I never had a dream or urge of adopting a dog which seems to me like too much attention consuming and as a bigger responsibility compare to a cat, I also less of a fan of their owner pleasing character.

* I don't have sexual thoughs when im near dogs or animals in general.

* I find that I can get horny from many kinds of paraphilias porn, all categories I enjoy usually have submission, sex that can be interpreted as sexual abuse, roughness and animalistic urges that has morality issues. For example, sex between inmates when the bottom is a submissive sex toy of theratrning looking thugs, "rape" like porn, sex between boss and employee, dad and son etc..
Nevertheless I'm not attracted at all to straight forward violence, it's a big turn off for me, even if it's only in acting in porn.

*I guess I can see myself trying to fuck a bitch, it seems very nice, warm and fluffy, but that's not what I'm mainly turned on by, and I don't think I could hold that as a satisfying sexual interest for long in real life. Maybe if I'll be able to connect to it psychologically as an act driven from differences in positions of power.

* I do have emotional intimacy with my cat, we always cuddling, sleeping together, I love her as my daughter, and we have deep emotional bonding. But i cant imagine how can I love a pet as a lover. If any, in a situation i would have a male dog that would use me for his sexual needs, if Im trying to imagine how I could percept it, I would feel its more like a father that helps his son with his sexual urges that drive him crazy, out of fatherly love and care, knowing he have nowhere else to release it and it can drive him crazy and miserable not being able to fuck... (And of course this thought turns me on extremely)

* One time during a hookup with some guy, we got very open with each other, and I told him that fucking with dogs turns me on, and he felt comfortable to share he having sex with his dog and accepted to demonstrate it infront of me. It was very stimulating, but less sexy as I thought it would, but there is a chance that the setting wasn't arousing enough for me. It was small short catered old dog, with very small dick and no cum, it lacked this powerful animalistic energy I was attracted to, so maybe that was the reason...

Mmm I guess that's it for now, maybe I'll have more to say through the conversation. Help me understand, do I have a sexual orientation towards animals or it is something else?

Heya! 30 something year old queer man here.

I can empathize with you questioning your sexuality because I have done it several times in my life. I think it is something that a lot of people go through but are afraid to share with other people. As a young boy I knew I liked men better than women and was attracted to men until my late teens. Much like yourself I was only attracted to boys my age or older men that were "manly men." Beer drinking, football watching, play some form of sport, Marlboro reds smoking, body covered in hair and a really hairy ass crack, with a baritone voice men were the only kind of men I lusted after. I was the submissive and I loved being used so my top could get off and enjoyed getting him off more than myself.

All of my sexual life, since 8 years old, I was into bestiality specifically men sucking off or getting fucked by horses and dogs. I've always considered my sexual desires and experiences with dogs and horses to be a kink not my sexuality. I have an increasing collection of horse cock dildos and doggie dick toys that several dudes have called kinky which makes me smile.

From grade school until the end of High School I never lusted after women and had no interest in having sex with them despite the many times my dick would get hard over a nice big pair of tits. (I don't care who you are, everyone likes tits. lol) I too have many many paraphilias, from mild to t*boo, that turn me on and I love to get off on. I tend to prefer porn that has a natural dominant/submissive context and is already part of the dynamic in the scene. Dad walking in on his son jerking off so Dad either joins his son or punishes his son. A unsuspecting guy getting "raped" in the prison showers or gangbanged at a construction site is a pretty big turn on.

One day I agreed to a three-way with a dude and his girl only because I really wanted to fuck around with him. I walked away from that experience more interested in women and wanting to play with their pussy's to make them scream and moan or best of all, squirt, putting me in a more dominate position. I didn't stop being attracted to men and I only wanted to have an intimate relationship and date men and I only wanted to have sex with women with no interest in dating. This was my sexuality for years until I found myself attracted to sissy's then crossdressers then trans women then masculine butch lesbians then trans men and so on. Also, all of my sexual life, since 8 years old, I was into bestiality specifically men sucking off or getting fucked by horses and dogs. I've always considered my sexual desires and experiences with dogs and horses to be a kink not my sexuality.

I told a guy I had just started dating about my being turned on by big horse cocks and thick knotted doggie dicks. I told him I really liked to watch a man suck on or get fucked by either and immediately started showing him some of my fave vids and pics. I remember us looking at the pics, both of us playing with our cocks, and he would occasionally turn to look at me with a look of shock and awe, I let some vids in my collection play on the tv as he sucked on my cock when he quickly shot his upper body upright, my dick making a loud wet popping sound as it left his lips, looked at me with a serious stare and asked if I’ve ever sucked or fucked the real thing. He lowered his upper body and was stroking my dick, never breaking eye contact with me, waiting for my answer. I laughed and told him of course I have but 99% of it being doggie dick and the 1% of horse cock was me stroking a horse who dropped his cock while I was in the stall with him. I would have run my tongue all over the dick head before trying to wrap my mouth around it but was interrupted. Later, he was sucking my dick when he suddenly stopped and asked if he could watch me suck and/or get fucked by a dog and I emphatically said yes and he went back to sucking my dick.

I'm not gonna tell you what your sexuality is and I hope no one else tries to tell you what your sexuality should be. Your sexuality is your decision and there will be times in your life where you will have to re-evaluate that decision and I have always thought of that as personal growth. Don't worry about labeling yourself or having to describe yourself to others because when you are confident with yourself you don't care what others think.

 

[someonelse]

Heya! 30 something year old queer man here.

I can empathize with you questioning your sexuality because I have done it several times in my life. I think it is something that a lot of people go through but are afraid to share with other people. As a young boy I knew I liked men better than women and was attracted to men until my late teens. Much like yourself I was only attracted to boys my age or older men that were "manly men." Beer drinking, football watching, play some form of sport, Marlboro reds smoking, body covered in hair and a really hairy ass crack, with a baritone voice men were the only kind of men I lusted after. I was the submissive and I loved being used so my top could get off and enjoyed getting him off more than myself.

All of my sexual life, since 8 years old, I was into bestiality specifically men sucking off or getting fucked by horses and dogs. I've always considered my sexual desires and experiences with dogs and horses to be a kink not my sexuality. I have an increasing collection of horse cock dildos and doggie dick toys that several dudes have called kinky which makes me smile.

From grade school until the end of High School I never lusted after women and had no interest in having sex with them despite the many times my dick would get hard over a nice big pair of tits. (I don't care who you are, everyone likes tits. lol) I too have many many paraphilias, from mild to t*boo, that turn me on and I love to get off on. I tend to prefer porn that has a natural dominant/submissive context and is already part of the dynamic in the scene. Dad walking in on his son jerking off so Dad either joins his son or punishes his son. A unsuspecting guy getting "raped" in the prison showers or gangbanged at a construction site is a pretty big turn on.

One day I agreed to a three-way with a dude and his girl only because I really wanted to fuck around with him. I walked away from that experience more interested in women and wanting to play with their pussy's to make them scream and moan or best of all, squirt, putting me in a more dominate position. I didn't stop being attracted to men and I only wanted to have an intimate relationship and date men and I only wanted to have sex with women with no interest in dating. This was my sexuality for years until I found myself attracted to sissy's then crossdressers then trans women then masculine butch lesbians then trans men and so on. Also, all of my sexual life, since 8 years old, I was into bestiality specifically men sucking off or getting fucked by horses and dogs. I've always considered my sexual desires and experiences with dogs and horses to be a kink not my sexuality.

I told a guy I had just started dating about my being turned on by big horse cocks and thick knotted doggie dicks. I told him I really liked to watch a man suck on or get fucked by either and immediately started showing him some of my fave vids and pics. I remember us looking at the pics, both of us playing with our cocks, and he would occasionally turn to look at me with a look of shock and awe, I let some vids in my collection play on the tv as he sucked on my cock when he quickly shot his upper body upright, my dick making a loud wet popping sound as it left his lips, looked at me with a serious stare and asked if I’ve ever sucked or fucked the real thing. He lowered his upper body and was stroking my dick, never breaking eye contact with me, waiting for my answer. I laughed and told him of course I have but 99% of it being doggie dick and the 1% of horse cock was me stroking a horse who dropped his cock while I was in the stall with him. I would have run my tongue all over the dick head before trying to wrap my mouth around it but was interrupted. Later, he was sucking my dick when he suddenly stopped and asked if he could watch me suck and/or get fucked by a dog and I emphatically said yes and he went back to sucking my dick.

I'm not gonna tell you what your sexuality is and I hope no one else tries to tell you what your sexuality should be. Your sexuality is your decision and there will be times in your life where you will have to re-evaluate that decision and I have always thought of that as personal growth. Don't worry about labeling yourself or having to describe yourself to others because when you are confident with yourself you don't care what others think.

First thank you for sharing.

That's the thing, my sexuality isn't fluid, it is very consistent. I'm gay, only males for me, and this submission abusive theme is very consistent.. what I expected from people here is to tell me, first of all, you are not zoophile, because you have no romantic desires or real life sexual drive from animals. And second maybe telling me that there is a specific sexual attraction that revolves around submittion and sexual abuse, and tell me the term so I can go read about it more, it's not like a term would close my mind and limit my life, it's only a form of communicating ideas...