Rocthorne
Citizen of Zooville
I've finally found the person I trust the most in my life, my husband is truly a wonderful man.
Some background on me, I've been suffering from major depressive disorder since I was a child at the age of 8 when I began questioning religion and life to a degree due to the loss of several grandparents who raised me in place of my parents due to their work schedules. And as life went on and I lost more family and began questioning both religion and even life itself. Along with those questions came deeper depression and eventually anxiety. And as I got older I tried coping with it by drugging and whoring, wishing every night I laid down would be the night I didn't wake up. At that time I hated myself and I still do to a degree. Not due to my sexual preferences but just because I felt I couldn't trust someone enough to even experience any love they may give due to a variety of traumas I experienced as a child, on top of feeling like I was completely unlovable in to begin with. I was also afraid of love if I'm being honest cause I had lost so many people I loved in the past. But with that being said let me explain why I'm making this post.
My husband caught me once and when he did I asked him what he thought and I was terrified that he would want a divorce on the spot, instead he thought it was hot. Well tonight I asked him what he meant by that back then and he said simply it was hot seeing me fuck a dog (it had been awhile between him catching me and me asking him what he meant). Well to follow that up I asked if we could get a male dog now that we have a new house with the room and a yard large enough for him to be as happy and healthy as he can get. He told me we definitely could. And while I asked him all this while sucking him off and warming him (and me) up it led to us laying down and watching a video and playing with one another....one I made back in the past years before I met him, and it was stolen from me and posted online without my consent. (I know it's mine due to the background as well as the sounds I made while a german shepherd shoved his cock up my ass) after watching it and double checking that he didn't have a problem with us getting a male dog that with being raised and cared and loved for will eventually shove his cock up my ass with any luck if he's up for it. And he said he didn't have any problems with it, and after some mind blowing sex, here I am writing this. Because I had to share and this is the only place I can and be fully honest about the level of trust and acceptance I'm experiencing. Because my zoo lifestyle is something I've been terrified of people knowing forever and his acceptance of it and me is something I am so thankful for. I have never felt more loved in my life and it extends beyond his acceptance of my zoo side, because he has been a shining light at the darkest points of my life even before we were dating, he truly is the man I will spend the rest of my life with and I love him with my whole heart. And I never thought I'd have love like this. I am at peace with life as far as knowing I have someone like him by my side. And I just had to share how I'm feeling and I'm feeling loved accepted tonight.
I hope you all find peace, and someone who accepts who you are and is understanding of your life. Whether they be a friend, a lover, or husband or wife.
Some background on me, I've been suffering from major depressive disorder since I was a child at the age of 8 when I began questioning religion and life to a degree due to the loss of several grandparents who raised me in place of my parents due to their work schedules. And as life went on and I lost more family and began questioning both religion and even life itself. Along with those questions came deeper depression and eventually anxiety. And as I got older I tried coping with it by drugging and whoring, wishing every night I laid down would be the night I didn't wake up. At that time I hated myself and I still do to a degree. Not due to my sexual preferences but just because I felt I couldn't trust someone enough to even experience any love they may give due to a variety of traumas I experienced as a child, on top of feeling like I was completely unlovable in to begin with. I was also afraid of love if I'm being honest cause I had lost so many people I loved in the past. But with that being said let me explain why I'm making this post.
My husband caught me once and when he did I asked him what he thought and I was terrified that he would want a divorce on the spot, instead he thought it was hot. Well tonight I asked him what he meant by that back then and he said simply it was hot seeing me fuck a dog (it had been awhile between him catching me and me asking him what he meant). Well to follow that up I asked if we could get a male dog now that we have a new house with the room and a yard large enough for him to be as happy and healthy as he can get. He told me we definitely could. And while I asked him all this while sucking him off and warming him (and me) up it led to us laying down and watching a video and playing with one another....one I made back in the past years before I met him, and it was stolen from me and posted online without my consent. (I know it's mine due to the background as well as the sounds I made while a german shepherd shoved his cock up my ass) after watching it and double checking that he didn't have a problem with us getting a male dog that with being raised and cared and loved for will eventually shove his cock up my ass with any luck if he's up for it. And he said he didn't have any problems with it, and after some mind blowing sex, here I am writing this. Because I had to share and this is the only place I can and be fully honest about the level of trust and acceptance I'm experiencing. Because my zoo lifestyle is something I've been terrified of people knowing forever and his acceptance of it and me is something I am so thankful for. I have never felt more loved in my life and it extends beyond his acceptance of my zoo side, because he has been a shining light at the darkest points of my life even before we were dating, he truly is the man I will spend the rest of my life with and I love him with my whole heart. And I never thought I'd have love like this. I am at peace with life as far as knowing I have someone like him by my side. And I just had to share how I'm feeling and I'm feeling loved accepted tonight.
I hope you all find peace, and someone who accepts who you are and is understanding of your life. Whether they be a friend, a lover, or husband or wife.
once the kink is out to your partner and they agree it's a huge load off your mind and even better when you can play with it too ?? happy for.you both and maybe we might get a photo of you both enjoying it ??