All my life - Feel of shame and confusion.

[Wolvesight]

Good day! The names Wolves! ?

From the time I was born my family has bred animals. Particularly horses and German shepherds. Few huskys as well. My folks split when I was 7. So it was down to just the 3 of us brother, mother and myself. Lived on 40 acres, in the middle of nowhere I spent most my time playing out in the woods with our shepherds. When we moved to this land after the folks split, new school, no friends sad and depressed. I spent most of all my free time with my dogs, at one point we had 6 in our pack. Even at such and young age I already new what sex and porn was, saddly. Sence i was always by myself the dogs became my friends more so than people. Didn't take long for me to figure out I could lay with the female GS and they didn't mind to much, we also had a husky at that time and she was beautiful. Her name was Star. So this turned into a daily routine for 11 years. I always told myself when I turn 18 id stop with the dogs. 18teen comes around and I did stop, it became harder to get lone time and I wanted a human mate, I had already before than been with a human a few times. I was not most popular kid but I had a truck and many friends/parties and all that. I'm 30 now and the feels have never left, I think about what iv done everyday, it's always in my head. A few months go one of my GS girls had some puppies, its been so long sence I had any craving, a few weeks after the puppies, I guess I lost control and just wanted to see if I would fit in, she let me play with her, and I couldn't believe I was able to go all the way. I fought for over 10 years to stop what I was doing, just to fall right back into it. Im working on stopping again, but I crave it all the time. I have to stop, I must stop!! its tearing me part, my mind is cursed, and broken like a stars dieing light, only to be seen as a fadded light colored in black down to the deepest parts of my soul, ever lost in a twisted universe of my own existence.

 

[pes]

So the main problem is that you want to have a human girlfriend/boyfriend. Well as you can see from this website, many people want the same. You might think when there is so many people wanting that, it should be easy. But it is not. Most people who want that are male, women are rare. So if you are into women, tough luck. Take a look at the Personal ads and Meetup section. The reality is harsh.

 

[saddlebum66]

Good day! The names Wolves! ?

From the time I was born my family has bred animals. Particularly horses and German shepherds. Few huskys as well. My folks split when I was 7. So it was down to just the 3 of us brother, mother and myself. Lived on 40 acres, in the middle of nowhere I spent most my time playing out in the woods with our shepherds. When we moved to this land after the folks split, new school, no friends sad and depressed. I spent most of all my free time with my dogs, at one point we had 6 in our pack. Even at such and young age I already new what sex and porn was, saddly. Sence i was always by myself the dogs became my friends more so than people. Didn't take long for me to figure out I could lay with the female GS and they didn't mind to much, we also had a husky at that time and she was beautiful. Her name was Star. So this turned into a daily routine for 11 years. I always told myself when I turn 18 id stop with the dogs. 18teen comes around and I did stop, it became harder to get lone time and I wanted a human mate, I had already before than been with a human a few times. I was not most popular kid but I had a truck and many friends/parties and all that. I'm 30 now and the feels have never left, I think about what iv done everyday, it's always in my head. A few months go one of my GS girls had some puppies, to be continued in mixed company

There are lots of Dating sites out there. Tjis site really isn't one. Best to try one of the sites that facilitate meeting.
Good luck

 

[Wolvesight]

There are lots of Dating sites out there. Tjis site really isn't one. Best to try one of the sites that facilitate meeting.
Good luck

Not looking for a mate.

 

[Wolvesight]

So the main problem is that you want to have a human girlfriend/boyfriend. Well as you can see from this website, many people want the same. You might think when there is so many people wanting that, it should be easy. But it is not. Most people who want that are male, women are rare. So if you are into women, tough luck. Take a look at the Personal ads and Meetup section. The reality is harsh.

Not looking for a mate.

 

[pes]

So then what is the problem?

 

[Wolvesight]

Good point! I just feel like I'm in a relaps, I feel like I fought hard to stop, but my body and mind fights against me. The endless craving drives me crazy, how can I stop? Does anyone else have a hard time dealing with this? I have had sex hundreds of times with them, and at points felt closer to my dogs than anything. Have kept all this built inside me and never tell a soul. I stopped for 10 years I was able to go that long! Now 10 years later I still can't get it out of my head! I know ill be alright, just kinda down on myself.

Thank you

 

[FloofyNewfie]

Good point! I just feel like I'm in a relaps, I feel like I fought hard to stop, but my body and mind fights against me. The endless craving drives me crazy, how can I stop? Does anyone else have a hard time dealing with this? I have had sex hundreds of times with them, and at points felt closer to my dogs than anything. Have kept all this built inside me and never tell a soul. I stopped for 10 years I was able to go that long! Now 10 years later I still can't get it out of my head! I know ill be alright, just kinda down on myself.

Thank you

For some sexual attraction is a fetish, for others it's an intrinsic part of them. I'm part of the latter group. For me it's not something I feel ashamed of, mainly because I make sure that both my animal mate and I feel mutual pleasure from our sexual activities. I truly do love my doggy girl, she's my world. I've basically, in a sense, turned my middle finger towards society and it's expectations of me, so that I may live the life with the sexual orientation I've known that I've had since puberty. But I do understand that it's not this easy for everyone.

10 years, eh? You lasted longer than I did, I stepped away for 2 years but I came crawling back on my hands and knees, like the dirty little heathen I am. I feel more attraction to female animals, particularly dogs, than I do to women. Zoo makes more sense to me, but it took walking away to figure that out.

I can only hope that you figure yourself out. It really does suck to be stuck in perpetual confusion and self doubt. Hopefully, our community here will help you decide which route you plan to take. That... or this community will corrupt you and bring you to the dark side regardless of what your original intentions were. Good luck, my friend!

 

[Disanima]

So... basically you are saying that you felt shame for being attracted to dogs and you tried to repress those feelings, am I right?
Some zoophiles have to pass this phase, some never gets used to the idea. I passed through something like this in my 20s and spent some years into denying all.
My final conclusion is that you can't deny who you are, if you do that you only hurt yourself and you are doomed to live a sad existence.
If you love dogs you shouldn't be ashamed of that, just be sure to always treat them with respect and care.

 

[Wolvesight]

For some sexual attraction is a fetish, for others it's an intrinsic part of them. I'm part of the latter group. For me it's not something I don't feel ashamed of, mainly because I make sure that both my animal mate and I feel mutual pleasure from our sexual activities. I truly do love my doggy girl, she's my world. I've basically, in a sense, turned my middle finger towards society and its expectations of me, so that I may live the life with the sexual orientation I know I've had since puberty. But I do understand that it's not this easy for everyone.

10 years, eh? You lasted longer than I did, I stepped away for 2 years but I came crawling back on my hands and knees, like the dirty little heathen I am. I feel more attraction to female animals, particularly dogs, than I do to women. Zoo makes more sense to me.

I can only hope that you figure yourself out. It really does suck to be stuck in perpetual confusion and self doubt. Hopefully our community here will help you decide which route you plan to take. That... or this community will corrupt you and bring you to the dark side regardless of what your original intentions were. Good luck my friend!

Hey thank you, I appreciate your words. In them 10 years I had a couple of fails. I felt the same, I was way more attracted to pretty female dogs that look wolf like. I think just getting this out and talking is good for me.

Thank you.

 

[Wolvesight]

So... basically you are saying that you felt shame for being attracted to dogs and you tried to repress those feelings, am I right?
Some zoophiles have to pass this phase, some never gets used to the idea. I passed through something like this in my 20s and spent some years into denying all.
My final conclusion is that you can't deny who you are, if you do that you only hurt yourself and you are doomed to live a sad existence.
If you love dogs you shouldn't be ashamed of that, just be sure to always treat them with respect and care.

Thank you, it does feel better to talk about it to people that have the same likeness. I do appreciate the words.

 

[Disanima]

You're welcome, as you can see you're not alone

 

[mammalsexual]

Im working on stopping again, but I crave it all the time. I have to stop, I must stop!! its tearing me part, my mind is cursed, and broken like a stars dieing light, only to be seen as a fadded light colored in black down to the deepest parts of my soul, ever lost in a twisted universe of my own existence.

Been a Zoophile since childhood, since well before I understood my feelings and what the word even meant, and throughout the majority of my life I struggled endlessly to fight my sexuality. Always been more attracted to animals (of both sexes) than I was to humans. Tried denying it with girlfriends, with religion, abstinence and will power, self hatred and the mind-numbing haze of drugs. Nothing, and I mean NOTHING, could change my sexuality.

Then, at age 40, I met my first marefriend, (the love of my life), who, with her unconditional love and clear, consensual love of interspecies sex, helped me to embrace my sexuality, and free me of the societal guilt that I was nothing but a dirty deviant sex freak, a molester of animals.

I haven't looked back since, and life has been so much better. Ideally I would like to have a human female partner to share this lifestyle with, but at age 50, I'm ok with the possibility that this may never happen as long as I have animals to share my life with.

FTW, sex and love beyond the bounds of species is AMAZING and feels natural as breathing to me. I just seem to have an innate ability to connect mentally, emotionally and sexually with animals in a way I don't with human females. Wished I'd embraced it a lot sooner in life.

I don't normally offer advice, but I'm about to offer you some for what it's worth:

Don't be ashamed. Embrace your sexuality. Love and cherish every moment spent with your animal partners and treat them well and with respect. But be discreet. Getting caught or being out and open about it can get you trapped in a world of hurt.

 

[Wolvesight]

Been a Zoophile since childhood, since well before I understood my feelings and what the word even meant, and throughout the majority of my life I struggled endlessly to fight my sexuality. Always been more attracted to animals (of both sexes) than I was to humans. Tried denying it with girlfriends, with religion, abstinence and will power, self hatred and the mind-numbing haze of drugs. Nothing, and I mean NOTHING, could change my sexuality.

Then, at age 40, I met my first marefriend, (the love of my life), who, with her unconditional love and clear, consensual love of interspecies sex, helped me to embrace my sexuality, and free me of the societal guilt that I was nothing but a dirty deviant sex freak, a molester of animals.

I haven't looked back since, and life has been so much better. Ideally I would like to have a human female partner to share this lifestyle with, but at age 50, I'm ok with the possibility that this may never happen as long as I have animals to share my life with.

FTW, sex and love beyond the bounds of species is AMAZING and feels natural as breathing to me. I just seem to have an innate ability to connect mentally, emotionally and sexually with animals in a way I don't with human females. Wished I'd embraced it a lot sooner in life.

I don't normally offer advice, but I'm about to offer you some for what it's worth:

Don't be ashamed. Embrace your sexuality. Love and cherish every moment spent with your animal partners and treat them well and with respect. But be discreet. Getting caught or being out and open about it can get you trapped in a world of hurt.

Thank you for your words! I have learned alot in the last few days, from people telling me there stories, like you! Thank you for sharing.

 

[Ookami]

Well, at least people here will not think there's anything wrong with you.
Personally I felt attracted to dogs from a young age - but it was less conscious - more like I fapped to a picture of a bitch in a magazine without thinking about it or got turned on by dogs in movies. But I did feel some attraction to girls - though that might just have been attraction to sex. When I finally got some porn (that was before the internet was wide-spread) there were 4 beast pics in a collection and those became my favorite pics. When I finally got internet those were all I was searching for. I didn't have any opportunity to be active with a dog myself, just met some dogs regularly while taking walks outside. By the time I finally managed to have some sexy time with a dog I was viewing myself as an exclusive zoophile even though I thought it harder to get an opportunity with a dog then with humans. That somewhat softened, I did have a relationship with another zoophile and some more casual sex with others - but dogs (of both sexes) will always be what I'm most attracted to.
I wouldn't care what others think about me, it's just the way I feel and spending time with dogs is the greatest thing in life for me - and the dogs I have had sex with were always willing partners. Who are others that don't even question their own lives because they are like everyone else to judge me ? Or dim-witted people who have no respect for their lovers at all like so many you can see today but hate on everyone not like them ? I can understand it if you want to stop yourself from having sex with animals because you fear you are acting against their wills - and I don't know you, but just having sex with an animal can be that or edging on that and many do it to the point just short of the animal fighting back - but just thinking it's "wrong" or not normal shouldn't stop yourself from having sex with an eager partner that also derives pleasure of it.

 

[ILoveZooGirlsXXX]

Since life doesn't come with an owners manual, you get to write your own. Obsessive guilt will just eat you up inside.
I'm probably the exception to a certain extent here. I was always with women, and it was a woman that made me aware of the lifestyle. Then another one after her, but I wasn't really able to understand my standing in zoo. I was just going along with the flow of life.
I wound up marrying a beautiful woman who was not zoo, and she was the only person I have ever loved. I thought about zoo sometimes but I never did anything about it. She died after 12 1/2 years together from cancer.
I came back in again when I ran into an old female friend that I had known for years. We were older and not in love, but we became fuck buddies. I exposed her to zoo when she expressed zoo curious interest. After we split I have gone 22 years non zoo and during that time I was looking for another zoo partner but it didn't happen. I've been doing a lot of thinking lately as I've had an awakening of sorts, and have realized that while I still love women I have been unable to admit to myself that I have always been sexually attracted to male dogs.
Does that bother me? Only that I wasted all that time not admitting how I really felt.
We all go down different roads in life, our own acceptance of our desires, needs and decisions without guilt is paramount to being fulfilled.

 

[Wolvesight]

Since life doesn't come with an owners manual, you get to write your own. Obsessive guilt will just eat you up inside.
I'm probably the exception to a certain extent here. I was always with women, and it was a woman that made me aware of the lifestyle. Then another one after her, but I wasn't really able to understand my standing in zoo. I was just going along with the flow of life.
I wound up marrying a beautiful woman who was not zoo, and she was the only person I have ever loved. I thought about zoo sometimes but I never did anything about it. She died after 12 1/2 years together from cancer.
I came back in again when I ran into an old female friend that I had known for years. We were older and not in love, but we became fuck buddies. I exposed her to zoo when she expressed zoo curious interest. After we split I have gone 22 years non zoo and during that time I was looking for another zoo partner but it didn't happen. I've been doing a lot of thinking lately as I've had an awakening of sorts, and have realized that while I still love women I have been unable to admit to myself that I have always been sexually attracted to male dogs.
Does that bother me? Only that I wasted all that time not admitting how I really felt.
We all go down different roads in life, our own acceptance of our desires, needs and decisions without guilt is paramount to being fulfilled.

Thank you for your story and advice.

 

[Wolvesight]

Well, at least people here will not think there's anything wrong with you.
Personally I felt attracted to dogs from a young age - but it was less conscious - more like I fapped to a picture of a bitch in a magazine without thinking about it or got turned on by dogs in movies. But I did feel some attraction to girls - though that might just have been attraction to sex. When I finally got some porn (that was before the internet was wide-spread) there were 4 beast pics in a collection and those became my favorite pics. When I finally got internet those were all I was searching for. I didn't have any opportunity to be active with a dog myself, just met some dogs regularly while taking walks outside. By the time I finally managed to have some sexy time with a dog I was viewing myself as an exclusive zoophile even though I thought it harder to get an opportunity with a dog then with humans. That somewhat softened, I did have a relationship with another zoophile and some more casual sex with others - but dogs (of both sexes) will always be what I'm most attracted to.
I wouldn't care what others think about me, it's just the way I feel and spending time with dogs is the greatest thing in life for me - and the dogs I have had sex with were always willing partners. Who are others that don't even question their own lives because they are like everyone else to judge me ? Or dim-witted people who have no respect for their lovers at all like so many you can see today but hate on everyone not like them ? I can understand it if you want to stop yourself from having sex with animals because you fear you are acting against their wills - and I don't know you, but just having sex with an animal can be that or edging on that and many do it to the point just short of the animal fighting back - but just thinking it's "wrong" or not normal shouldn't stop yourself from having sex with an eager partner that also derives pleasure of it.

Thank you for your thoughts. I would say all the mates I had where in no distress haha, at one point I loved my German shepherd girl way more than anyone else and she loved me back.

 

[stami]

Good day! The names Wolves! ?

From the time I was born my family has bred animals. Particularly horses and German shepherds. Few huskys as well. My folks split when I was 7. So it was down to just the 3 of us brother, mother and myself. Lived on 40 acres, in the middle of nowhere I spent most my time playing out in the woods with our shepherds. When we moved to this land after the folks split, new school, no friends sad and depressed. I spent most of all my free time with my dogs, at one point we had 6 in our pack. Even at such and young age I already new what sex and porn was, saddly. Sence i was always by myself the dogs became my friends more so than people. Didn't take long for me to figure out I could lay with the female GS and they didn't mind to much, we also had a husky at that time and she was beautiful. Her name was Star. So this turned into a daily routine for 11 years. I always told myself when I turn 18 id stop with the dogs. 18teen comes around and I did stop, it became harder to get lone time and I wanted a human mate, I had already before than been with a human a few times. I was not most popular kid but I had a truck and many friends/parties and all that. I'm 30 now and the feels have never left, I think about what iv done everyday, it's always in my head. A few months go one of my GS girls had some puppies, its been so long sence I had any craving, a few weeks after the puppies, I guess I lost control and just wanted to see if I would fit in, she let me play with her, and I couldn't believe I was able to go all the way. I fought for over 10 years to stop what I was doing, just to fall right back into it. Im working on stopping again, but I crave it all the time. I have to stop, I must stop!! its tearing me part, my mind is cursed, and broken like a stars dieing light, only to be seen as a fadded light colored in black down to the deepest parts of my soul, ever lost in a twisted universe of my own existence.

I know this feeling of wanting/having to stop all too well!

 

[stami]

For some sexual attraction is a fetish, for others it's an intrinsic part of them. I'm part of the latter group. For me it's not something I feel ashamed of, mainly because I make sure that both my animal mate and I feel mutual pleasure from our sexual activities. I truly do love my doggy girl, she's my world. I've basically, in a sense, turned my middle finger towards society and it's expectations of me, so that I may live the life with the sexual orientation I've known that I've had since puberty. But I do understand that it's not this easy for everyone.

10 years, eh? You lasted longer than I did, I stepped away for 2 years but I came crawling back on my hands and knees, like the dirty little heathen I am. I feel more attraction to female animals, particularly dogs, than I do to women. Zoo makes more sense to me, but it took walking away to figure that out.

I can only hope that you figure yourself out. It really does suck to be stuck in perpetual confusion and self doubt. Hopefully, our community here will help you decide which route you plan to take. That... or this community will corrupt you and bring you to the dark side regardless of what your original intentions were. Good luck, my friend!

I think he wants a human relationship and not to be a zoo, certainly not a 100% zoo.

 

[Wolvesight]

Didn't get a chance to know many on this site, probably won't log on again. I have found what I needed, in conclusion, ill fight with all my strength to keep the past in the past, I may mess up, but ill fight to end, no matter the cost.

Thank you all for reading my story! If confused go back in time, like a blue phone Box.


Wolvesight out!

 

[stami]

He will only get away from it if he has no opportunities. Opportunity makes love.

 

[saddlebum66]

Good point! I just feel like I'm in a relaps, I feel like I fought hard to stop, but my body and mind fights against me. The endless craving drives me crazy, how can I stop? Does anyone else have a hard time dealing with this? I have had sex hundreds of times with them, and at points felt closer to my dogs than anything. Have kept all this built inside me and never tell a soul. I stopped for 10 years I was able to go that long! Now 10 years later I still can't get it out of my head! I know ill be alright, just kinda down on myself.

Thank you

Merry Christmas. Hope things get better, but we are not able to help you. If you are exhibiting addictive behaviors, you should see someone about them.

 

[jellybean56]

Good day! The names Wolves! ?

From the time I was born my family has bred animals. Particularly horses and German shepherds. Few huskys as well. My folks split when I was 7. So it was down to just the 3 of us brother, mother and myself. Lived on 40 acres, in the middle of nowhere I spent most my time playing out in the woods with our shepherds. When we moved to this land after the folks split, new school, no friends sad and depressed. I spent most of all my free time with my dogs, at one point we had 6 in our pack. Even at such and young age I already new what sex and porn was, saddly. Sence i was always by myself the dogs became my friends more so than people. Didn't take long for me to figure out I could lay with the female GS and they didn't mind to much, we also had a husky at that time and she was beautiful. Her name was Star. So this turned into a daily routine for 11 years. I always told myself when I turn 18 id stop with the dogs. 18teen comes around and I did stop, it became harder to get lone time and I wanted a human mate, I had already before than been with a human a few times. I was not most popular kid but I had a truck and many friends/parties and all that. I'm 30 now and the feels have never left, I think about what iv done everyday, it's always in my head. A few months go one of my GS girls had some puppies, its been so long sence I had any craving, a few weeks after the puppies, I guess I lost control and just wanted to see if I would fit in, she let me play with her, and I couldn't believe I was able to go all the way. I fought for over 10 years to stop what I was doing, just to fall right back into it. Im working on stopping again, but I crave it all the time. I have to stop, I must stop!! its tearing me part, my mind is cursed, and broken like a stars dieing light, only to be seen as a fadded light colored in black down to the deepest parts of my soul, ever lost in a twisted universe of my own existence.

You're beating yourself up and you need to stop, what you need to do is ACCEPT yourself and ACCEPT you like this. The only reason you feel this way, ashamed, confused, treating this like a relapse and all that, you talk about it similar to heroin use tbh, is because society told you it was wrong, disgusting etc and its simply not. Society is wrong about many of things and you've been conditioned to believe this way. In reality you followed a natural instinct from an innocent age and what you've done is perfectly natural, there isn't anything wrong with it. You simply have an attraction / fetish / sexuality that most don't and that most won't understand, thats all. As long as the dog is never forced, all is safe and well then there is no problem. You need to work on acceptance in yourself, just let yourself indulge in it, its who you are, and clearly if you're this age and still not shook it, its the real you, so relax, stop fighting yourself on it, stop listening to wider society, its none of their business what you enjoy as long as you're not harming anyone. Many animals have sex for sexual pleasure, not just reproducing, and they also have inter-species sex too, so considering we see it in nature and among animals, I don't think its wrong for humans to either, we're clearly not all that different. There are women in to it, its just rarer, but they're around, but I wouldn't worry about that much, this lifestyle usually is a solo one kept to yourself, but if you're lucky enough to find a lady to join in with you then great, but I'd advise a regular human relationship separate to this zoo / bestiality one, if thats what you're looking for now or even in the future. I'm female, there's no shame in it, screw society's twisted opinions, I can decide for myself what feels right, wrong, natural, unnatural and its my life, my choice, I'd never harm an animal, so I don't see this as wrong in any way.